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genderqueerdykes Ā· 2 days ago
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hey, i saw a post on here saying you guys support non "traumagenic" systems and I was wanting to know if thats true.
You guys are so amazing and have helped me with my identity a lot, but this information is really important to me as a trauma survivor with severe PTSD. If you are pro endos but are open to listening to trauma survivors and phycology sources, I absolutely will provide them. I want you guys to be a safe space for people with PTSD and dissociative disorders so bad, as people who has OSDDDID tend to have more "contradictory" labels in the first place, due to the complex relationship all the different alters identities make combined.
I'm hoping so much that you'll be open to listening if this is true.
hello! i'm good, i don't need any!
if you only have severe PTSD and not a dissociative disorder and do not identify as plural, you should NOT be commenting on plurality at all. like i hate to break it to you, but if you do not deal with plurality, you do not know what the experience is like. reading papers about it will not give you insight into how people actually live.
i'm an inclusive Dissociative Identity Disorder system who is 100% pro endo, and any other type of system. i support ALL plurals, i don't cherry pick. you're correct, this blog is a safe space, especially for people with "contradictory" identities or ones that "don't make sense." why wouldn't i be here for endogenic and non traumagenic systems?
that would go against everything i stand for.
i am a trauma survivor as well. i *have* DID, i don't really need any resources on the matter- before I was diagnosed i spent years researching, and i still do keep up with research. i am aware that DID and OSDD are caused by trauma! generally it's severe, repeated trauma and/or neglect. i have no memories of my life before the age of 10. i too have severe PTSD, i have a diagnosis for C-PTSD in specific. i live with this every day of my life. i still have a lot of trauma and triggers. i black out and lose time and regularly forget who i am or where i'm at.
something to keep in mind is research on DID has literally 0 bearing on other types of plurality. just because there is a lot of research into DID, OSDD, etc. does not mean that other plural experiences do not exist. when ONLY siting medical sources and saying that because there's no other "proof" or "evidence" that other types of plurality "can't" exist, it's an appeal to authority. there is no research data to point toward because studies on DID and OSDD and other dissociative disorders have really only gained traction within the last 10 - 20 years maximum. this is an extremely recent phenomenon! just because there are no (paid, keep in mind that studies have to find funding, and investors are picky) medical papers or studies to point toward doesn't mean something isn't happening.
someone identifying as plural without trauma is not an affront to plurals who do have trauma. someone identifying as a system who doesn't have or know of any childhood trauma is not spitting in your face. i've seen this take around and it's just not it. don't take someone else's mental health as an attack on yours. it's not hurting you at all for people to identify as plural if they don't have trauma. it's not spitting in *my* face, so it's not spitting in yours, either. it's okay to let non traumagenic systems exist. it's not exacerbating your trauma or re-traumatizing you or subjecting you to new trauma.
they're not saying that your trauma is invalid just because they don't have any. i don't like people who get on a high horse because they have a dissociative disorder and act like they get to police how other people's brains work. you only know how your brain works. you do not know how any other type of system works.
endogenic systems are not identifying as endogenic to spite you or dissociative systems. they're not doing it to hurt you. they're doing it because they identify as multiple people. that is not being done with the intention to hurt anyone. this is about THEM, not you. nobody is the protagonist of the plural community. no one.
as a plural, myself, i get to choose who i support. and i choose to support people who aren't hurting anyone or doing anything wrong. i really don't care how offensive some people find non traumagenic systems, but they're not hurting you, me, or anyone else. live and let live. you don't know how someone else's brain works. you will never be able to know how someone else's brain works. accepting that will make your life easier.
being angry at other people for not having trauma will not make yours go away or undo what was done to you. you should never take out your frustrations on people who haven't hurt you. endos haven't hurt you, you just don't agree with them. these are 2 separate things. also you really don't have the right to comment on the nature of how complex non traumagenic plurality is or is not- endogenic systems can have just as many nuanced and complex identities regardless of whether or not they're dissociating. they're still multiple people whether or not you see them that way. they also have complex identities, why wouldn't they? being different people leads to a lot of complexity. you should still see them as multiple people even if you don't think it's legit. that's basic respect for another person who, again, literally hasn't hurt you.
also endogenic and non dissociative systems are still people, and we should still care about them. they're still people even if you don't agree with them, and again: they have not hurt you by virtue of existing.
hope that helps and makes sense. i am not open to changing my mind on this, but i appreciate you giving me a good reason to explain my stance on the matter. i don't have the right to police other people and tell them how their own brains work. you don't have that right, either. i'm not here to police anyone. that goes against everything i stand for. i don't gatekeep.
i'm not a cop.
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skillbattle Ā· 6 months ago
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umm hi happy juneteenth šŸ‘‹šŸ½ im a freelancer whoā€™s just trying to get by and pay my bills, if youā€™d like to support me in anyway today it would be highly appreciated!! šŸ«¶šŸ½ kofi ā˜•ļø
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feline-evil Ā· 7 months ago
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Now we're nearing the end of my move (fucking finally) i can safely say that if i had not had the Song of Salvation on repeat for large stretches of time during this i do not think i would've made it through as well as i have
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inkwingsinc Ā· 8 months ago
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oh no :(
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time-is-restored Ā· 2 years ago
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i have literally nowhere else to put this i apologise for the spam. the absolute best thing to come out of s3 trent is without a doubt the fucking earnestness... like in s1-2 he always came across as a very self-assured kind of guy, who knew how he came off (ie: intimidating) and enjoyed it. but seeing that paired with him being silly + completely relaxing in certain company??? pulling ridiculous faces at vodka + scrunching up his nose when he smiles @ colin + making the most ABSURD 'i really wanna say something right now but i feel like im interrupting' noises ive ever heard in my fucking LIFE??? its like. he is cool as shit and he is self assured AND he can make dumb fucking sherlock holmes jokes and dance ridiculously. its like!!!! he's lame but he's also not bc he's exactly as confident in being lame as he is being cool. do u see the vision. he has killed the part of him that cringes!!!! its just.. that unshakeable self confidence that u see in his fucking swaggers into frame includes all of himself + his different moods and eccentricities and that's just so based to me idk. unironically live ur best life wear the loudest combination of prints and patterns and primary colours uve ever seen in ur life while espousing the virtues of extended museum hours!!! contain multitudes! get silly with it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#ted lasso spoilers#combined with james lance's hc abt trent's past its just. like!!#the growth from 'i can't be what you want me to be so im going to be Better than them + tear them down'#-> 'i know my reputation so im going to lean into that + be ruthless + intimidating' ->#'actually fuck this? fuck this! im just gonna be me and if anyone has a problem w then L To Them I'm Actually Living'#also this is just my hcs at this point but like. i do think ted helped a lot w the latter part of this process in so much as. ted embodied#someone who was Visibly weak + vulnerable and had no armour/no sense of self preservation#(the opposite of trent's persona) and made no effort to change anything abt himself to prevent attack. obviously ted has a lot of social +#class advantages that make that less risky for him than it would be for others but like. u get the drift#and i THINK. seeing how without that armour/facade ted was able to be rlly direct + earnest w connecting w ppl#like asking an interviewer 'what do u love?' and rlly genuinely wanting to know the answer#and bc TRENT was specifically in the position of 'i could fucking destroy u rn and u wouldn't put up a fight'#that kind of. shifted his perspective a bit? like. damn what would that say abt me if i wrote a hit piece on this guy rn#i disagree VERY strongly w the idea that trent's more positive character development moments happened ONLY bc of ted (i don't think that's#true for anyone in the show tbh) BUT i think ted's presence at a pivotal point in his life was what helped him confront the fact that#at this stage in his life all his intellectual armour was doing was making him into someone Mean rather than just incisive#like. 'is this a fucking joke' is not cutting journalism. u get me??#and arguably that's a fine and even safe choice to make when ur younger and have no support/reputation backing u up#but after decades? its like man wtf are we doign here if were literally just living preventatively#smth smth i hope i am not just a tumblr blog to u but a blog who is inventing the brain chemistry of a sitcom side character#w each new episode they watch. trent crimm is my best friend irl i know he would have scorching hot takes abt each new season of survivor#and would earnestly heckle the jury and final 3 alike
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ashraffamilynew Ā· 3 months ago
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Please help secure a future for an entire family - me, Ashraf, my wife Ghadeer, and our lovely innocent son Yamen šŸ‘¶šŸ’™
Vetted by @el-shab-hussein and @nabulsi , fundraisers list Number (#328)
Vetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on their list ( #74 )
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Please bring us back to life without war, destruction, genocide or killing because this is what fills our memories after we forget what a life full of hope is like ā€¼ļø
I'm Ashraf from the war-torn Gaza. I've lived an entire life under siege in Gaza, facing relentless military actions and life-threatening conditions daily. In October 2023, the conflict escalated drastically, devastating my newly built house, my neighborhood,my workplace, and jeopardizing the lives of my family.
My wife, Ghadeer @ghadeerarqan , and I live in Gaza with our baby son Yamen. My wife gave birth to Yamen during the war, and it is all he has ever known. Yamen has spent the tenth months of his young life without a stable home, surviving a genocide.
I mourn the loss of our safe haven, but more urgently, I need to secure a future for my family away from the constant threat of bombings that have become our grim reality.
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Meet Yamane, our precious tenth-months-old. Who was born during this war, We aspire to provide him with opportunities that surpass our own experiences, fostering a future filled with joy and prosperity.
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This campaign is a call to arms for all who believe in the transformative power of community support. By contributing, you're not just donating; you're actively shaping Yamane's world, ensuring his journey is filled with the promise and potential every child deserves. Join us in making a profound impact on his life
Yamen... he's only a baby. He doesn't understand the fear that grips us, the darkness that engulfs our lives. He just smiles, his eyes bright with innocent wonder, oblivious to the terror that surrounds him. He reaches for me with tiny hands, his laughter a fragile melody in this symphony of destruction. šŸ’”
can we shield him from the reality of this war ā‰ļøcan we keep him safe ā‰ļø
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Your generosity is a beacon of hope for my family, especially for my little baby boy YamanšŸ‘¶šŸ©·, who deserves a future free from fear and filled with opportunity.
Thank you for standing with us during this incredibly challenging time. Your support means the world to us, šŸŒŗšŸ©·šŸŒæšŸ•Š
But we still need your help to reach our goal. Please continue to share our campaign and consider contributing if you can. Together, we can create a brighter future for Yamane and all children affected by this conflict.
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Vetted by @el-shab-hussein and @nabulsi , fundraisers list Number (#328)
Vetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on their list ( #74 )
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mightyoctopus Ā· 1 year ago
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Blind Tumblr users: donā€™t get the latest iOS app update!
I just updated my tablet to the newest version of the tumblr app for iOS and it completely broke screen reader access for both VoiceOver and Spoken Content. This has happened in the past already, so I will file a support ticket and copy-paste my text from last time, but this really sucks. I sincerely hope this doesnā€™t affect all screen reader users, but Iā€™m unsure how they could program this bug in a way it only affects me. If you rely on a screen reader to use the tumblr app, Iā€™d advice to not get the latest update to be on the safe side.
When I say ā€œcompletely broke accessā€, what I mean is that no posts on my dash or on individual blogs get read or recognized at all. No plain text, alt text, tags, etc. Note count and buttons still work though.
If you also run into this bug, hereā€™s my advice. If anyone has something more useful, please tell me
File a support ticket and report this bug
Use the browser web version, which still works for me
Interestingly, if you save a post to your drafts and click on ā€œeditā€ the post text seems to get read correctly. This might be a work-around for some people.
If you have the latest version but your screen reader didnā€™t break, also please tell me! I would be fascinated to know if this bug is only affecting some people
TL;DR: The latest tumblr app update for iOS made it so screen readers no longer work in the app
Please boost!
Edit: This issue is now fixed as of November 10th 2023. However, since this is a recurring issue, itā€™s possible that a future update will break it again. See notes for more details.
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falesten-iw Ā· 2 months ago
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On this day last year, my family faced a choice no one should ever have to make: stay in their home in Gaza and risk death or flee south, clinging to the slim hope of finding safety. Spoiler alert: there was no ā€œrightā€ answer. In Gaza, there never is. Families like mine would run from areas labeled dangerous, only to be bombed in so-called ā€˜humanitarianā€™ zones. Because in Gaza, no place is truly safe.
Each time they evacuated, they had the same gut-wrenching, desperate conversations on repeat: ā€œShould we stay or go? Where would we even go? Do we send the women and children first, or do we all stick together?ā€ Imagine trying to make life-and-death decisions with bombs falling around you.
One evening, a family friend offered them shelter, hoping the madness would calm down in a few days. My brothers agreed to move everyone there the next morning. But the bombs beat them to it. Just hours after that phone call, Israeli airstrikes hit our friendā€™s house. Thirty-five people, including children, gone. They never got a chance to move, and instead, they grieved for the lives lost.
They ran to Khan Younis, only for tragedy to follow. In November 2023, Israeli bombs hit my cousinā€™s house. I lost three cousins, their wives, and their children. It was chaos. Pieces of people scattered everywhere. A small childā€™s body lay unrecognizable until my cousin realized it was her son, Odi. His head was almost gone, but she knew him. She knew him by the shape of his teeth, his little toes. Thatā€™s the kind of loss no mother should ever face.
Since then, my family has moved over 50 times, haunted by the same questions: Where can they go next? How can they afford to survive another evacuation? Will they even manage to set up another flimsy tent?
And speaking of tents, imagine trying to live in one with your children. Picture makeshift cesspits serving as toilets, which fill up in a few weeks, forcing them to dig another. Comfort? Safety? Those words mean nothing. How do you sleep at night when your ā€˜homeā€™ is a tent and your bathroom is a hole in the ground?
Talking about my family and Gaza breaks me, yet it also brings me a strange comfort. I refuse to let their stories fade. Their memories are beacons in the darkness, bittersweet reminders of joy and sorrow.
My family needs urgent help to survive this ongoing nightmare. Please, donate if you can. Share our story with your friends and family. Help us keep fighting, keep surviving.
Vetted and shared by @90-ghost: Link.
Verified and shared by @el-shab-hussein: Link
Listed as number 282 in "The Vetted Gaza Evacuation Fundraiser Spreadsheet" compiled by @el-shab-hussein and @nabulsi : Link
Listed on the Butterfly Effect Project, number 957: Link
Additionally, Al Jazeera News has documented apart of my family's case: Link
If, for some reason, you couldn't donate via GoFundMe, you can donate via PayPal instead.
Note: Thereā€™s even a raffle for a handmade Palestinian thob if you want to participate : Link
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fedao Ā· 5 months ago
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šŸ‰ Help my family šŸ‰
Hello, I am Fidaa and I am reaching out to you with a heavy heart on behalf of my family, a family of five people trapped in the devastating situation in Gaza. We are urgently seeking evacuation to Egypt after enduring more than 282 days of displacement and hardship. I am seeking to help us urgently and provide us with the minimum requirements. I never imagined that my loved ones would be caught in the crossfire of a conflict they were not part of. My husband had only one dream ā€“ to teach and take care of our children . The idea that their innocence has been marred by the horrors of war is too heavy a burden to bear. We face the harsh reality of conflict. The trauma inflicted on my children tears at my heart, and I am haunted by fear for their safety and well-being. To give you a glimpse into their daily struggle, they wake up to a relentless battle for survival after surviving deadly nights. For more than 200 days, we have been cooking on firewood due to the scarcity of cooking gas. The entire region lacks fuel for cars, making transportation almost impossible. Basic necessities, including medicines, are scarce, even for those with the means to purchase them. Humanitarian aid has barely reached areas in Khan Yunis that have not yet reached us. But I find myself in a very embarrassing situation. I have to go back and ask for help and rescue. You are my only hope. My family is struggling with genocide. I promised myself that I would do my best to convey their suffering and save them, even if it cost me death. My beloved family is the most precious thing in my existence, and I am very sad that we are still in the Gaza Strip, where we see all kinds of death I'm ashamed to ask you to help me save our lives. It was my wise way to save my children If someone donates $5 it will make a difference for us and help us because we need more. I don't want to lose my family, you are my only hope I love you because you were the source of my trust. I love you because you are truly wonderful. You are our hope always and forever. You also helped me save my family, the most precious thing in existence. I feel so embarrassed but I have rubbed salt in my wound and I have no one to save it but you
Your generosity will directly help save my family from death and rebuild our lives. Every donation, no matter the size, makes a big difference. Lend your hand and make a meaningful impact for us because we need you Donate on GoFundMe Every contribution, whether big or small, will directly help save my family's life āœ“ Share this post and spread the word ā©„ Please share this campaign with your friends, family and colleagues to help us achieve our goal and evacuate my family safely . Your support means everything to me, and I am so grateful for any help you can provide during this difficult time. Your help means everything to us. For more details or questions, please contact me freely. Your kindness is a beacon of hope for our family. We thank you for your support and hope that better days will come.
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aces-and-angels Ā· 5 months ago
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there is no denying the power the english language holds over the western world-- or rather the world itself. time has shown me how limiting it really is. how many words are lost in translation? how many people are shunned because their tongue has been deemed inferior?
i'd like to shine a spotlight on hossam's campaign (verified/vetted; no. 251 on el-shab-hussein/nabulsi's sheet) his ability to campaign for himself is hampered by the imperfection of google translate and the volatility and precariousness of the ongoing genocide he suffers through. hossam writes:
"i have not lost anything material. i have only lost my entire family, except for the wives of my young brothers and their children. therefore, i am responsible for taking care of them."
my heart aches for hossam. he is waylaid by a lack of internet, but begs you to please consider his campaign/donate to his family so that they can have safety and survival. they deserve that and more. again in hossam's words:
"i created this campaign, hoping for all of you to succeed and obtain the money for their travel and private life insurance for a short period of time, so that we can at least feel safe from traveling and sitting. in a relatively quiet place, away from the machine of death, then thank you to those who stood by me, and thank you to all the donors, and thank you to all who will donate after this post. thank you all, from my broken heart, thank you."
as of posting, hossam has raised $4,510 CAD / $20,000 CAD. do not be a bystander- share where you can, donate if you have the means to.
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control-z-my-decisions Ā· 2 months ago
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Now that you've answered the poll, may I please direct your attention to Abood and his Gofundme campaign and their story:
"Hello, my name is Andy. I live in Ohio, but I am organizing this fundraiser for Abood and his wife who are stuck in Gaza. They're hoping to gain enough money to evacuate to Egypt.
Here are his words:
"Hello, I am Abood from Gaza. I am 25 years old. I got married 5 months ago. This means that I got married during war.
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"I studied accounting, graduated with a high average, and worked in a chain of clothing stores that my father owned
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"My wife and I now live inside a small tent in an area that is not safe, but we have no other choice. We live in extreme heat that cannot be tolerated by humans, and the presence of insects and pollution also affects my wife's health. Her health is deteriorating and I cannot provider her with the necessary care because of everything. We live with our only hope of survival, to travel, but the cost of leaving Gaza is very expensive. To be able to leave costs one person more than $8,000, and this is an insane number.
"That is why I ask you to help and save the lives of me and my wife from death."
Proof they are vetted here.
Here is their campaign:
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kitten4sannie Ā· 3 months ago
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pairing: werewolf! mingi x hunter! reader (fem)
genre: fluff, romance, smut
summary: you seemingly end up biting off more than you can chew upon discovering that the beast you hunted down for dinner is not what it seems.
w.c: 4.5k (more plot than smut this time hehe)
warnings: needy soft dom! mingi, sub! reader, pet names + praise only (shocking ik), pheromones mentioned, possessiveness, kissing, groping, tit play, spit + drool bc wolf mingi is a messy boy <3, mingi eats out reader like sheā€™s his last meal šŸ«¶šŸ¼, SIZE KINK,,, feral unprotected sex, knotting <333, bulge kink/cum inflation, breeding kink ofc
a/n: ITā€™S FICTOBER TIME BITCH LETS FUCKING GOOO šŸ—£ļø i am fashionably late ~ but i have come here to humbly offer you lovestruck werewolf mingi šŸŗ <3 this is the softest my fictober stories will get btw lol itā€™s gonna be depravity from here on out ^^ oh and iā€™m sorry if this fic seems disjointed in any way,, i have a lot on my mind these days but regardless i hope you enjoy ~~
pssst: thank you so, so much for 5.5k followers !! itā€™s honestly insane to me and i still canā€™t fathom it hehe but the support and love means so very much to me <333
song rec: say - keshi
fictober 2024
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You knew better than to hunt at night, but your rumbling stomach begged to differ. The evening air was frigid, sitting heavily inside your lungs each time you regrettably breathed it in, your hefty pelt only doing so much to keep you safe from the powerful winds that continually blew through the vast forest around you. You pulled the hood of your pelt down for a moment, the familiar sounds of wildlife finally making their way to your now exposed ears, though a freezing breeze made its mark on the soft flesh of your rosy cheeks and nose. You bit into your chapped bottom lip, surveying your surroundings for something youā€™d be able to feast on once you were back inside the safety of your cabin, thanking the gods for the decent visibility you had from the full moon above.Ā 
The longer you sat there in silence, your body never growing acclimated to the fierce winter temperatures, you began to fall susceptible to exhaustion, the kind that had sunk its way deep into your bones in the same way your loneliness had for years at a time, feeling so heavy you retired from your once rigid stance and slumped down against the oak tree behind you. A few winks of sleep couldnā€™t possibly hurt you, not when you were quick to rise and fight if need be, your trusty bow and arrow at your side, as well as a pocket knife always sitting in its holster at your hip. You would be up as soon as you had the strength to open up your eyes and go on.Ā 
You eventually woke up to the sound of howling. It had been so distinctly powerful that it was most likely produced by a large wolf, perhaps the leader of a pack. It was then that the culprit of the noise stalked past a few nearby trees and bushes, its dark shaggy coat leaving it virtually impossible to see due to the way it blended in so seamlessly. Leaving abnormally big paw prints behind in the ground below, it slowly paced back and forth in front of you, still quite a distance away from you, but getting closer and closer with each step it made, its large brown eyes piercing right through yours and seemingly gazing upon your soul, deeply fixated on your presence.Ā 
It was much larger than any wolf you had seen in your entire lifetime, more akin to a dire wolf, which you had only seen in books, as it had been extinct for hundreds of years before, yet it wasā€¦so familiar. Still trapped inside the limbo of the dream you were initially having and your reality, you werenā€™t completely sure if what was happening before you was actually real. Not only that, but you had the sudden urge to be at the mercy of the wolf, even if it meant that youā€™d end up with your throat between the beautiful creatureā€™s ragged teeth. However, you werenā€™t going to roll the dice with death, not when youā€™ve seen past loved ones get their lives snuffed out by a predator half the size of the one that was suddenly eagerly making its way towards you.Ā 
Just before the wolf could reach you, your bow was drawn, the feathered arrow slicing into the cold skin of your cheek as it sailed through the air and lodged itself into the creatureā€™s shoulder, your eyes shut tight all the while. What you expected to hear were the familiar pained whines of a canine but you instead were exposed to the lower pitched groans of a man, causing you to freeze, your eyes opening back up, now widened like marbles. The last thing you were expecting to see was another human, not when you lived alone in the woods for so long, and especially not a man that was stark naked and cowering in pain, with tears in his glistening eyes, looking at you as though you had betrayed him.Ā 
You dropped your bow in favor of being at the strange manā€™s side, surveying his wound, realizing you were so exhausted and hungry, you mustā€™ve simply imagined the wolf. ā€œI-i thoughtā€¦ā€ you whispered, mostly to yourself, your voice trailing off, almost surprised to hear it after not using it for so long.
ā€œIs that your way of saying hello?ā€ The man hissed in pain when you touched the site of his wound, pushing your hand away from the broken shard of wood that was still lodged inside his bare shoulder.Ā 
ā€œI thought you wereā€¦going to kill meā€¦ā€ You reached down and tore off a portion of your thick linen blouse, about to wrap it around the manā€™s wound when you blocked you with his forearm. ā€œI saw a wolfā€¦ā€Ā 
ā€œDo I look like a wolf?ā€ he pouted, reaching over to hold his shoulder in pain.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m sorry, Iā€“ā€¦Please, let me help you. I need to apply pressure,ā€ you reasoned, your face contorted with growing regret and concern.Ā 
Studying your body language, the man cautiously let go of his arm and allowed you to wrap the torn linen around the wound site, biting into his lip all the while, letting out a few pained grunts. ā€œHurtsā€¦ā€Ā 
ā€œI know, Iā€™m almost done, I promiseā€¦ā€ you whispered softly near him, taking a second to share a look with the man, apologizing once again with your softened gaze and upturned brows.Ā 
Once you were done, he leaned forward slightly into your personal space to study you, his eyes widened once again, this time with curiosity and admiration, already trusting you despite remnants of your arrow still left inside him.Ā 
You bit into your lip, letting out a small breath, which turned into condensation as soon as it left your mouth. ā€œI didnā€™t think anyone else lived in this forestā€¦Where did you come from?ā€
Afraid that you would find his true identity to be far too much for you to handle, he thought it would be better to hide it. ā€œSome would call me a nomadā€¦Iā€™m here, there, everywhere, really.ā€Ā 
You nodded at his words, noticing once again that he lacked clothes when you were finally able to pull your attention away from his hypnotizing likeness, never having been drawn to someone like this before. It was then that you averted your eyes with diligence, your once cold cheeks growing warmer the more he stared at you. It took all your strength to return his gaze for just a moment. ā€œDo nomads usually wander around the woods without proper clothing?ā€Ā 
ā€œWellā€“ā€ The werewolfā€™s vision went dark for a second, as your pelt was thrown onto him. He pulled it down just enough to continue admiring the human he had been watching from a distance for so long, blowing a few strands of dark shaggy hair out of his sight. ā€œIā€™m Mingi, by the way. Whatā€™s your name?ā€Ā 
ā€œY-Y/N,ā€ you answered sheepishly, not sure why the strange man was so keenly interested in you, especially after you just shot him with an arrow.Ā 
ā€œY/N,ā€ he repeated lovingly, enjoying the way it sounded, slowly sitting up until little white dots began to dance around his vision. ā€œI donā€™t feel so good.ā€ When Mingi fell forward into your arms, he couldnā€™t help but smile. You smelled so pretty, just like he had imagined. Warm like cinnamon, smoky like the fire you always kept burning inside your cabin, sweet like flowers in a garden he would roll around in when no one was around. You smelled like home.Ā 
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It took most of your strength helping the injured man back to your cabin, immediately laying him down in your bed and pulling your warm blankets up over him. To beat the freezing temperature inside your cabin, you quickly tossed a few pieces of wood in the fireplace and lit it up. You stayed crouched near the controlled flames for a little while to make sure the fire stayed alive, until your company let out a soft groan of pain. Now at his side, you pulled the pelt from his shoulders and frowned at the extent of the damage you caused, tears pricking at your eyes. ā€œYouā€™re still bleeding, Mingiā€¦Iā€™m so sorryā€¦I need to stitch you up.ā€
Just as you stood up, Mingi reached up to hold onto the corner of your torn blouse, blinking hazily up at you, a few beads of sweat cascading along his straining neck. ā€œPlease, donā€™t worry about me, love. Youā€™re the one who needs rest.ā€Ā 
ā€œNonsense.ā€ You shook your head, pulling away to find your sewing kit, your cheeks hot to the touch. Once you found it inside one of your drawers, along with a sleep shirt that had belonged to a previous loved one, you returned to Mingiā€™s side. ā€œNow, stay still, okay?ā€Ā 
ā€œIā€™ll do whatever you need from me.ā€ Mingi slowly sat up and rested his back against the headboard, watching with interest as you expertly sewed his wound closed, quite fond of the way you took care of him, and of how close you were to him, your hand resting on his chest for stability as you worked. Before you could pull your hand away from his body, he placed his over yours, unintentionally allowing you to feel his rapid heartbeat. ā€œThank you for this. Anyone else wouldā€™ve left me for the wolves.ā€
Biting into your lip, you couldnā€™t help but take into account the way his hand completely enveloped yours, truly forgetting just how important physical touch and connection with others was until this very moment, now that his warm skin was pressing into yours. ā€œI-itā€™s nothing, reallyā€¦ā€
ā€œNo, itā€™s not just nothing,ā€ Mingi pouted, slowly bringing your hand up against his cheek to gently nuzzle into it. He couldnā€™t believe he had gotten this close to you, the special human he had been head over paws for ever since he had seen you for the first time. ā€œItā€™s everything. You saved me.ā€Ā 
It was almost as if this stranger had escaped one of the novels you read over and over, seeming too good to be true. ā€œIt was the least I could do after I hurt youā€¦ā€Ā 
It was when Mingi began to look at you for too long, with that unwavering longing in his eyes, that you cleared your throat and stood up, announcing, ā€œI think Iā€™ll make us some nice, warm soup. How does that sound?ā€Ā 
It took everything in Mingi not to let out a few celebratory howls, instead nodding his head eagerly, his shaggy brown hair bouncing. ā€œIā€™ve always wanted to try your food. I can smell it from outside sometimes and it always makes my stomach rumble.ā€Ā 
You began to expertly chop up vegetables, stopping mid slice when you digested Mingiā€™s interesting choice of words. ā€œSo you know of me?ā€Ā 
ā€œI-i do,ā€ he nodded shyly, despite your back being turned away from him.
ā€œHave you been watching me, Mingi?ā€ you asked after a few more minutes of silence, your knife now slicing into the last few potatoes you had pulled from your garden before winter began.Ā 
ā€œā€¦.Admiring you,ā€ he gently corrected, knowing his big fluffy ears would be splayed out in embarrassment if they were there.Ā 
Just as you began to pour the cut up vegetables into the pot of boiling broth, you blushed and jolted suddenly from the implications of the handsome strangerā€™s words. Your elbow knocked into the side of your cleaver, causing it to slip off the edge of the wood counter. Before you could blink, Mingi had already caught the handle of the cleaver, slowly standing up by your side, officially displaying the sheer size difference between the two of you.Ā 
ā€œI didnā€™t mean to scare you, loveā€¦ā€ Mingi set the cleaver back down onto the counter, reaching over to touch your hand with a gentleness you hadnā€™t experienced before.Ā 
The speed and quickness of Mingiā€™s reaction was incomprehensible; you were still reeling from it. Now he stood beside you, his size and stature more akin to a beast in human form than a simple man. Not only that, but the hand that was overlapping yours felt hot to the touch, like Mingi had a furnace burning away inside of him. You had heard stories of shapeshifters that lived in dense forests much like the one you called home. They had been around for centuries, living amongst themselves, never interacting with humans, able to take the form of beasts at will. You glanced out your window, peering up at the bright orb looming over you. It was a full moon, after all ā€” but did myths like that really exist in the real world?Ā 
ā€œMingiā€¦are youā€¦?ā€ Your words began to die inside your mouth as soon as the puzzle pieces began to fall into place inside your mind. You couldnā€™t deny the connection you felt with Mingi, knowing that your total isolation played a part in your desire to let him in. It clouded your mind. You were growing so tired, you almost didnā€™t seem to mind if he wasnā€™t strictly human.Ā 
Mingi smiled softly down at you, one of his canine teeth poking out past his plump lips, leaning himself down a bit to shorten the distance between you. He waited eagerly for you to finish your question, tilting his head to the side,Ā having to blow his hair out of the way.Ā 
ā€œAre you hungry?ā€ you finally asked, lowering the flame on the stove so that the soup could settle now that it was ready to serve.Ā 
Mingiā€™s lips formed a silent ā€˜oā€™, his cheeks burning with embarrassment. He thought you mightā€™ve been on the same page about your mutual attraction, but he was beginning to suspect that his obsession with you was one sided. Itā€™s not like you had imprinted on him; it was the other way around. Silly wolf.Ā 
Before Mingi could cry about it, he tasted something so delicious, he couldnā€™t help but let out an enthusiastic ā€˜mmm!ā€™. You had slipped a soup spoon into his open mouth, allowing him to try the first homemade meal heā€™s ever had in his life, one that you had made for the both of you to share together within the sanctity of your cabin, away from the bitter isolation of the forest. He was a silly wolf, after all, because this, this was love.Ā 
ā€œGood?ā€ you gauged softly, your eyebrows upturned with sheepish anticipation.Ā 
ā€œGood! Ahhh~ā€ Mingi licked his lips and opened up again, savoring the warm, comforting feeling inside his stomach once you fed him another bite. ā€œIā€™ve never had something this delicious before.ā€Ā 
ā€œOh, stop,ā€ you blushed, pouring some soup into a bowl and handing it to Mingi, shocked to see him bring it up to his mouth and gulp it down. ā€œOh, you werenā€™t lyingā€¦were you?ā€Ā 
Mingiā€™s brown eyes were round, shiny like marbles, filled with unwavering sincerity. ā€œEverything tastes better when youā€™re with the one you loveā€¦ā€Ā 
You almost choked on your own soup, finding it hard to breathe all of a sudden. ā€œD-did I hear that rightā€¦?ā€Ā 
Mingi was a romantic at heart. He couldnā€™t help it, especially when the moon was so big and bright, glowing with everlasting light. She was reminding him to be brave. ā€œY/N, do you believe in love at first sight?ā€Ā 
Your heart thumped away inside your chest, a steady reminder that you were alive, and not alone for the first time in a long time. ā€œI think I mightā€¦Is that crazy?ā€Ā 
Mingi brought his hand up to his face to hide the way it scrunched up with pure joy, his cheeks rosy and full of warmth. ā€œIf it is, then I must be too.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhereā€¦have you been all this time? Iā€™ve been waitingā€¦for someone like youā€¦ā€ You slowly reached up to pull his hand down, bringing it to your own face, pressing your cold cheek into his large palm. ā€œFor someone to keep me warm.ā€Ā 
He had been there all this time; you just hadnā€™t seen him yet. But now, you would see all of him. Without thinking, Mingi brought his other hand to your face, gently cupping your cheeks and bringing himself down so that he could press his lips onto yours. It took everything in him to pull away just enough to whisper, ā€œIā€™m here now. Is thatā€¦better?ā€Ā 
For the first time, you felt like you could let your guard down, not be the lonely, hardened hunter you had to be. Now that you were safe, you could take a rest. ā€œBetter,ā€ you whispered back, wrapping your arms around Mingiā€™s neck just in time to lay against his chest, losing the strength to stay awake.Ā 
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You woke up to the sensation of something intensely warm wrapped around you from behind, someoneā€™s lips idly pressed to the nape of your neck, what felt like fluffy ears twitching near your hair, the soft fur tickling your exposed skin. The air around you was hot and heavy like you were stuck inside an oven, an enticing aroma of spiced cinnamon and woody musk clouding your senses. Your eyelids fluttered open, first noticing two strong arms locked around your middle, realizing Mingi was holding you close to him, his heated chest pressing into your back.Ā 
Overcome by the memories of earlier, the forgotten intimacy of being touched and held by someone, the intense pheromones you were practically doused in, and the want, the need to be truly seen by Mingi, despite having just met a few hours ago, you attempted to turn around to face him, only to have him tighten his grip just enough to keep you still. ā€œM-mingi, I want to look at youā€¦Iā€™m not mad, I justā€“ā€
ā€œDo you know what youā€™re getting into, love?ā€ he whispered in a gravelly voice into your ear, sounding like he had just woken up out of a deep sleep, sending a rush of goosebumps across your skin with just his words. ā€œIā€™m notā€¦what you think I am.ā€Ā 
You sheepishly pushed back against Mingi, hearing him let out a soft groan, knowing he was just as satisfied with the way your body felt against his. ā€œI already know, Mingiā€¦I trust you. Iā€™m not scared.ā€ You felt his grip loosen up around your waist, opting to cement his hands around your waist.
His lips were now pressing directly onto the shell of your ear, making you shiver. ā€œDo you know what I am, Y/N? Do you wish to see?ā€Ā 
ā€œI doā€¦ā€Ā 
It was then that Mingi climbed on top of you, his broad naked body keeping the glowing orange light of the fire from reaching you, the pelt you had offered him earlier falling into a pile on the side of the bed. Filled with a sense of lustful wonder, you studied Mingi, your half-closed eyes trailing along his tan skin, noticing how his wound had already healed completely, unable to ignore the arousing addition of his elongated canine teeth and the way his tongue ran across them. ā€œYouā€™re aā€¦werewolfā€¦ā€
Mingiā€™s fluffy wolf ears twitched slightly, listening closely to the way your breath hitched. ā€œMost would be scared of me, but youā€¦you like this.ā€Ā 
You swallowed harshly, still finding it very difficult to breathe in the air around you, Mingiā€™s dominating presence further encouraging you to submit. ā€œWill you eat me?ā€Ā 
Mingi let out a small puff of air through his nose, the corners of his mouth curling up into an amused smile, lowering himself further onto you, knowing his heavy cock was pressing into your heat through your linen trousers. His lips ghosted along your jaw, the bushy end of his tail gliding back and forth along one of your ankles, replicating the light strokes of a paintbrush. ā€œOnly in the way that would have you begging for more.ā€ The small moan that escaped your throat didnā€™t go unnoticed by Mingi. He nosed at your neck, resisting the urge to lick and bite at it. ā€œThough, i wonā€™t do anything without your permission, love.ā€
You cupped your hands around his heated face, your insides feeling as if they had been set ablaze. ā€œDo with me what you will, Mingi. I insist.ā€Ā 
When Mingiā€™s lips parted, you pressed yours onto them with a fervor you didnā€™t realize you possessed. The kiss grew more and more intense, the two of you holding onto one another as though you were afraid it all would end too soon, taking turns licking into each otherā€™s willing mouths, breathing in each otherā€™s air when you grew dizzy.Ā 
Growing frustrated with the lack of skin on skin contact, Mingi pushed his large hands up past the hem of your woolen top and slid it off of you, admiring the soft curves of your exposed breasts, before his desperation kicked in and he nuzzled his face against them, sighing onto your skin. ā€œBeautifulā€¦ā€ He dragged his tongue up in between your tits, grabbing one while he sucked desperately on the other, a low growl erupting from his throat.Ā 
ā€œMingi,ā€ you moaned out, your back arching, only encouraging him to see what other pretty noises he could get you to make, gasping when his sharp teeth teased your sensitive nipples.Ā 
He licked over them to ease the sudden bout of pain, unable to keep himself from sucking one of them into his mouth, apologizing with his upturned eyebrows and his big, round eyes.Ā 
You simply couldnā€™t take it anymore. You needed him to make a mess of your aching cunt, feeling your wetness stick to the thin linen material of your pants as you kicked them off. ā€œMingi, more, please, need moreā€¦ā€Ā 
The werewolf knew what you needed when your fingers slid into his soft hair, leaving kisses along your bare body as he moved down south, getting himself comfortable between your spread thighs. ā€œYou want me to eat you up, yeah?ā€ He spread your pussy open with his thumbs, nosing at it to inhale your flowery scent, quite aware that it bumped into your clit when he gave your slit an experimental lick, just enough to collect your essence on his tongue. ā€œMy beloved needs me to ravage her?ā€Ā 
ā€œYes, pleaā€“oh, my god,ā€ you reacted whinily, your thighs involuntarily pressing into the sides of his head just as he dove in, which he grabbed onto, pushing them up and out of his way, his lips and tongue already working in tandem to drive you to a place of pleasure youā€™ve never been before.Ā 
Mingi devoured your cunt in true animalistic fashion, licking and slurping up your juices as soon as it spilled out of you, just to spit it it back onto your slit and drink it all down, eventually plugging you up with his large tongue to feel you throb, unable to keep himself from fucking you with it until you began to cry out his name in between unintelligible words, your fingers tugging on his hair.
So good, itā€™s so good, nnnghh, iā€™mā€“ā€ You cut yourself off once your impending orgasm took over your body, barely able to register Mingi rubbing soft circles into your shaking thighs and leaving kisses across your inner thigh and on your sensitive clit. You were finally brought back to earth when Mingiā€™s arousal coated tongue slipped into your mouth, his heated body pressing heavily into yours, gasping into his mouth as soon as Mingi began to desperately rut against you, doing your best to swallow his drool. It was when he whimpered that you broke the desperate kiss, asking softly, ā€œWhat is it, dear? Tell me what you need.ā€Ā 
ā€œNeed you, need to be inside you,ā€ Mingi exhaled against your jaw, letting out a few shaky breaths, unable to keep himself from sinking his claws into your sheets, clearly at his limit. ā€œCan Iā€¦? Please?ā€Ā 
ā€œHave your way with me, Mingi,ā€ you granted his wish, welcoming him with open arms, just as he folded you up into a mating press and began to pound himself into you.
Mingi knew that such an intimate position would almost guarantee that you would home his pups after the very first knot. It drove him crazy. He couldnā€™t help but fuck into you as hard and fast as he could, emitting a animalistic grunt or growl with each thrust he made into your dripping cunt, a few drops of drool escaping past his plump lips and landing on your flushed, sweat-ridden face. ā€œYouā€™re mine now, love. My mate. Iā€™m going to breed you.ā€Ā 
ā€œYā€“oursā€¦!ā€ you could barely enunciate, not when he kept punching the air out of your petite body when his oversized one came in contact with yours, his heavy cock continually slipping back into your willing hole with so much ease, it was clear that you were made for him.
ā€œMine. My pretty little mate, all for me.ā€ It was then that Mingi bit down into your neck, hard enough that he could leave his mark on you, a white hot streak of pleasure shooting through your spine as he did so.Ā 
It felt so good, you couldā€™ve swore you were already cumming, dragging your nails down his broad back, your eyes disappearing underneath your fluttering eyelashes. The werewolf didnā€™t seem to get tired, no matter how many times you came undone, his large hands still tugging on your hips, forcefully guiding you back onto his cock as though you were a simple doll, at least until you felt a new sensation, something stretching you open even further. ā€œHaaah, itā€™s so bigā€¦ā€Ā Ā 
ā€œThatā€™s my knot, love. Will you take it, Y/N?ā€ he panted into your ear, licking and nibbling at it as his husky voice finally penetrated your hazy mind.
ā€œYes, give it to me, please, Minā€¦ā€
He hummed against your skin, running his hands along the soft edges of your heated body. ā€œIā€™ll breed you fullā€¦so full of my cum, youā€™ll be carrying my pups by the next full moon.ā€Ā 
Something about what Mingi said altered the state of your mind on a primal level, your thighs automatically hooking around the werewolfā€™s waist, your arms around his neck to hold him impossibly close. You wouldnā€™t be alone anymore. You had a ā€œmate,ā€ like Mingi had lovingly coined the phrase. You would be his, and he was yours, and something so simple made you feel safe.Ā 
ā€œYes, please.ā€Ā 
It wasnā€™t the heavy knot that stretched you wide and locked you in that brought tears to your eyes, but the sudden, hot, seemingly endless rush of cum that flooded your womb that made you cry. Mingi rubbed gentle circles over the small pouch that joined the prominent bulge his cock made inside your abdomen. ā€œYou did so well, love, so good for me,ā€ he cooed at you, giving your cheek a few loving licks. ā€œYou were made for me.ā€Ā 
ā€œI was just thinking that,ā€ you sighed softly, running your fingers through his matted, sweaty hair, loving how it felt to have him still stay inside you, keeping all his love from pouring out. It just felt right. Being here with Mingi felt right, like you had always been waiting for him to fall into your life.Ā 
ā€œThatā€™s because youā€™re my other half.ā€ He pressed a kiss to your forehead, before resting his against yours. ā€œIt was destined.ā€Ā 
ā€œFor me to shoot you with an arrow?ā€ you joked, reaching up to gently play with one of his furry ears.Ā 
Mingi nuzzled into your touch, wanting to stay with you in that moment, that warm bed, that cozy little cabin that kept you both safe for as long as he could. ā€œI would get shot a million times over, if it meant that I could meet you again.ā€Ā 
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right here, yet so far away | oneshot
Pairing:Ā Jungkook x (f.) Reader
Genre/Tags:Ā exes to lovers, ceo! jungkook x kindergarten teacher! reader, angst, smut, fluff
Word Count: 19.4k (my hands slipped girl)
Chapter Warnings: mature language, unprotected sex (pls be safe), oral (f. receiving), mentions of an accident, coma, violence (lmk if i missed anything)
A/N: hello cuties. this is a special post in honor of me hitting 300 followers. i cant believe the immense support i have received when it's only been a week. thank you so much for consuming my work and supporting me. also please note, the text in italics are for dream sequences or flashbacks. P.S i know people don't just instantly recover after a long coma, but in this story it's just heavy plot armor, so kindly understand.
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ā€œBut babyā€¦ please justā€¦ā€ Jungkookā€™s voice cracks as he jogs to catch up, his hand reaching out for yours. You swat it away without hesitation, the sting of rejection hitting him harder than any words ever could.
ā€œJungkook, stop it.ā€ you say firmly, your tone sharp enough to cut through his soul. He freezes, his wide eyes searching yours for answers.
ā€œBut baby, just tell me why? We were doing so goodā€¦ just yesterday, you... you said you loved me. Please, you canā€™t just... leave like this.ā€
He tries to observe your expression, hoping to convince himself that this is just some cruel joke. But thereā€™s no softness in your eyes, no flicker of doubt. Only a cold, unyielding resolve.
ā€œDonā€™t you understand?ā€ you scoff, folding your arms tightly across your chest. ā€œIā€™m tired of you, Jungkook. Iā€™m tired of us.ā€ His breath hitches, disbelief flashing across his face. ā€œStop. Donā€™t say that. You donā€™tā€¦ you donā€™t mean that.ā€
ā€œI do.ā€ you insist, each word a dagger to his heart. ā€œI mean every word of it. Iā€™m done with you. This whole relationshipā€¦ itā€™s not going anywhere. Itā€™s a waste of time, and I justā€¦ I canā€™t, Jungkook. We have to break up.ā€
His shoulders slump, and his chest rises and falls as though the air has been knocked out of him. He stands frozen, staring at you, desperate to find some hint of hesitation in your expression. But all he sees is resolveā€¦ or at least, what youā€™re determined to show him.
ā€œWhy?ā€ he whispers, his voice barely audible.
You stare at him blankly. "Because I donā€™t love you anymore.ā€ you reply, your voice unwavering. Jungkook flinches as if struck. His lips part, but no words come out. And when you turn around and walk away, the sound of your retreating footsteps echoes in his ears, louder than any goodbye, as your body disappears into the darkness.
BEEP BEEP BEEP
The shrill wail of the alarm slices through the silence, and Jungkook's eyes harshly open. He gasps for air, his chest heaving as the nightmare clings to him like a second skin.
Itā€™s always the same nightmare. The same scene. The same words. The same look on your face. The same crushing weight in his chest.
He drags a hand down his face, the coolness of his palm doing little to soothe him. His dark hair sticks to his forehead, damp with sweat, and he blinks up at the ceiling fan spinning lazily above him.
For a moment, he just sits there, the silence of his apartment wrapping around him like a cold blanket. A single tear trickles down his temple as images of you flash in his mind, one after the other. His phone buzzes on the nightstand... a reminder of the meetings and deadlines awaiting him, but he doesnā€™t move.
Four months. Itā€™s been four months since you walked away, and he still doesnā€™t understand why.
He remembers the day of the break up like it was yesterday. The scene is so vividly planted in his mind that he even sees it in his sleep. He canā€™t get rid of the way you looked at himā€¦ like you despised the sight of him, like you truly didnā€™t love him anymore.
He still doesnā€™t have his answers. Why did you leave so suddenly? Why did your heart just decide it didnā€™t want him anymore? The questions linger in his mind, unanswered, gnawing at him like a constant ache he canā€™t escape.
Jungkook remains rooted on his mattress, the weight of memories pressing down on him as he recalls the first time he saw you. It was over two years ago, but when he recollects it, it feels so vivid, like it's happening in the present.
He had been reluctant to attend an event that was scheduled at a local kindergarten nearby. Exhausted from a long flight back from the States, heā€™d tried to get out of it. But his assistant, understanding the importance of his role as the CEO, insisted that he'd attend it regardless.
His company wasnā€™t just about selling food products, it was dedicated to promoting healthy living, especially for children. They organized events to educate kids on the importance of good nutrition, partnered with schools to provide nutritious meals, and created fun, interactive programs to get children excited about eating right.
Though Jungkook wasnā€™t keen on spending his afternoon with a room full of energetic kids, he went anyway. The workshop had already started and the moment he stepped into the classroom, ready to grab the attention of the kids, he suddenly spotted you.
You were standing at the front of the room, a soft smile on your face as you engaged with the children, laughing with them and cracking jokes. Your energy was infectious, and the way you moved with such ease around the kids made his heart skip a beat. There was something so warm and genuine about you, something that immediately drew him in.
It wasnā€™t just the way you looked... though you were undeniably beautiful, but how you carried yourself, the kindness that radiated from you, and how at home you seemed in this world of tiny hands and laughter. Jungkook had never been the type to believe in love at first sight, but the moment his eyes landed on you, something inside him shifted.
He had been smitten, captivated in a way he couldnā€™t explain. His thoughts had scattered as he watched you, his mind far from the speech he was supposed to be giving. It was almost embarrassing how quickly you had captured his attention, and yet he couldnā€™t look away.
It wasnā€™t until later, when he was preparing to leave, that he finally found the courage to approach you. He had been nervous, unsure of what to say. But the moment you looked at him, a simple greeting from you was all it took.
Your smile was enough to melt any lingering doubt he had. He introduced himself, his voice slightly shaky but confident enough to make a lasting impression. And you, with that same gentle smile, responded in kind, immediately making him feel at ease.
He had no idea at that moment that this chance encounter would change his life in the best way possible.
Now, laying in his bed, Jungkook smiles bitterly, remembering how it all started. How he had the most beautiful relationship with you for around a year and three months. How one decision, one visit to that kindergarten, led to everything he lost. He still can't understand why you left him the way you did, without explanation, without any chance for him to fix whatever went wrong. The image of your face that day... the coldness, the finality, haunts him still.
Despite the whirlwind of thoughts clouding his mind, Jungkook forces himself to push them aside. He stares at the ceiling for a moment longer, allowing the weight of the memories to settle, before finally making the decision to get up.
He knows he canā€™t linger in this state forever. The day is waiting for him, and he canā€™t afford to let his emotions hold him back. With a sigh, he swings his legs off the bed and plants his feet firmly on the floor. The familiar coldness of the hardwood beneath his feet is grounding, and for a brief moment, he feels a sense of control over the chaos in his mind.
The early morning light filters through the blinds, casting a soft glow on his room. He moves to the bathroom, running cold water over his face, hoping it will somehow shake the fog from his thoughts. Itā€™s a futile attempt, but itā€™s enough to snap him into the present, if only for a few minutes.
Jungkook stares at his reflection in the mirror, taking a deep breath. His mind is still heavy, but heā€™s learned over the years to compartmentalize, especially when it comes to work. Heā€™s the CEO and his company canā€™t afford to be distracted by his personal life. No matter how much his heart aches, thereā€™s a bigger picture to focus on.
//
You glance at the kids, focused on their coloring books, and a soft smile tugs at your lips. Theyā€™re adorable, each one lost in their own little world, their tiny hands gripping crayons as they carefully add color to their drawings. You walk around the room, quietly observing their work, admiring the little bursts of creativity.
As you pass by the window, your gaze drifts outside, where a few children are running and playing on the soccer field. You let out a sigh, your fingers subconsciously tracing the pendant of your necklace.
Itā€™s the only thing that connects you to him, to the one that got away, to the one you let slip right through your fingers, even when it hurt to do so. You close your eyes for a brief moment, and his image floods your mind. The way his eyes sparkled when he smiled, the warmth of his touch, the comfort of his presence.
You miss him so badly, your chest tightening with the weight of it. But you push the feeling down, swallowing the ache in your heart. You remind yourself why it had to end, why you had to walk away. But that doesnā€™t make it hurt any less.
As you stare at the bleachers stand by the green field, a vivid and unpleasant memory creeps up your mind.
"Break up with him."
Junghyunā€™s voice was calm, his eyes fixed on the empty soccer field ahead. The chilly evening breeze brushed past your hair, but it did little to cool the heat rising in your chest. You turned to look at him, disbelief written all over your face.
"What?" you asked, your voice carrying a mix of confusion and irritation. Junghyun was Jungkook's older brother and his unexpected visit had left you completely on edge.
You had only met this man once before, a fleeting encounter when you accidentally bumped into him outside Jungkookā€™s apartment. Seeing him now, unannounced at your workplace, caught you completely off guard.
"Break up with him, Y/N." he repeated, turning to face you this time. His gaze was piercing, his tone unyielding. "You know you two belong to completely separate worlds. Jungkook isnā€™t in love... heā€™s just infatuated. And frankly..." he continued, his voice dropping with disdain. "Youā€™re nothing but a distraction."
You stared at him, your mind reeling from the audacity of his words. The traffic noise in the far distance felt like static compared to the ringing in your ears. "Are you serious right now?" you managed to say, your tone sharper than you intended.
Junghyun didnā€™t flinch. "Iā€™m completely serious. Do you think this little fling of yours will lead to anything? Jungkook has responsibilities... he has a company to run, a legacy to uphold. Youā€™re a kindergarten teacher, Y/N. A sweet girl, sure, but not someone who can keep up with him."
His words stung, but you refused to show it. "Jungkook loves me." you stated firmly, your voice unwavering. "I know how he feels about me. So whatever youā€™re trying to pull, it wonā€™t work."
Junghyun scoffed, shaking his head. "Love? You call this love? Heā€™s smitten, sure, but that doesnā€™t mean itā€™ll last. Youā€™ll only hold him back."
You clenched your fists, your chest tightening with frustration. Every instinct in you wanted to yell at him, to tell him how wrong he was, how little he knew about what you and Jungkook shared.
You breathed heavily, your eyes narrowing as they locked onto him. "I'm going to pretend we never had this conversation." you said, your voice steady despite the turmoil bubbling inside. Without waiting for a response, you turned on your heel, stepping off the bleacher stands and ready to head back inside.
ā€œHanyung Hospital.ā€ Junghyunā€™s voice suddenly rang out, stopping you dead in your tracks. Your breath hitched, and your eyebrows furrowed as your back remained turned to him. A wave of unease settled over you, his words striking a chord you wished he hadnā€™t found.
ā€œIsnā€™t that where your brother is admitted?ā€ His tone was sharp, laced with a smirk you didnā€™t need to see to recognize.
Slowly, you turned to face him, your heart racing as panic flashed across your features. Had this man done a background check on you? Your mind reeled at the thought, fear and anger coursing through you in equal measure.
Junghyunā€™s smirk deepened as he saw the panic etched on your face. ā€œGuess I know a little too much about you, sweetheart.ā€ he said smoothly, his words dripping with a smug satisfaction.
Your fists clenched at your sides, but your voice caught in your throat. The realization that he had gone to such lengths made your skin crawl, and a sense of dread settled in your stomach.
"See, this is the problem with you lowlifes..." Junghyun sneered, his voice dripping with disrespect. "You have so many weaknesses, yet you never stop dreaming big." He let out a cruel laugh, his eyes glinting with amusement at your stunned silence.
You stared at him, your throat tightening as if the words you wanted to say were caught in a vice. "I heard heā€™s been in a coma for four years." he continued, his tone casual, almost mocking.
Your eyes stung with unshed tears, the weight of his words pressing down on your chest. The mention of your brother... the very core of your vulnerability, felt like a dagger twisting in your heart.
ā€œMaybe I should make sure this coma lasts foreverā€”ā€
"What?" The word burst out of you before he could finish. Panic surged through you, visible in the way your breathing quickened. Junghyunā€™s smirk widened, his eyes lighting up with satisfaction at your reaction. He relished the fear and desperation etched across your face, feeding off the control he had over the situation.
"Leave my brother out of this." you managed to say, your voice low but firm, fists clenched tightly at your sides. "This has nothing to do with him."
You force yourself to regulate your breathing, trying to steady the whirlwind of emotions threatening to spill over. But deep down, you know exactly what this man is doing. And it feels like a threat too enormous to escape.
Junghyunā€™s smirk only deepens, his silence more unsettling than words. Itā€™s as though he revels in watching you squirm under the weight of his insinuations.
Your mind races, every possible scenario flashing before you. The influence Jungkookā€™s family wielded wasnā€™t just intimidating, it was terrifying. They were rich, powerful, and connected in ways you could only imagine.
For all you know, they could probably make someone disappear without a trace. And standing face-to-face with Junghyun, you think that's your chilling reality right now.
You swallow hard, meeting his gaze with as much resolve as you can muster, but the unease in your chest lingers. You feel trapped, cornered by an enemy who knows just where to strike to hurt you the most.
"Well, sweetheart, I want to leave him out of this too..." Junghyun sighs, his tone mockingly sympathetic. "And you know exactly what you need to do for that to happen."
His words strike like a hammer, each syllable weighing heavier than the last. You feel your whole world collapsing around you, the walls closing in with no way out. You feel suffocated. Cornered. Powerless.
Your gaze drops to your feet, tears pooling in your eyes despite your desperate attempts to hold them back. The fight within you slowly crumbles, leaving only the unbearable weight of his ultimatum.
You clench your fists, your nails digging into your palms as you fight to keep yourself composed.
"I'll break up with him." you whisper finally, the words tasting bitter on your tongue. A tear slips down your cheek, the first crack in the dam as the reality of your surrender settles in.
Junghyun steps down from the bleacher stands, his slow footsteps growing louder in your ears. You donā€™t move, your feet rooted to the ground as if the weight of your decision has physically anchored you.
He stops in front of you, and you feel his presence, his amusement radiating like poison. A soft laugh escapes him, sending shivers down your spine.
"Now that was easy, wasnā€™t it?" he mocks, patting your head like youā€™re a child whoā€™s just followed orders. Your jaw tightens, teeth gritting at the humiliating gesture, but you remain silent.
"And this goes without saying, but... Jungkook should never hear about this encounter." Junghyun says, his voice low and taunting as he steps closer.
You don't respond, your throat too tight and your mind too fogged with fear and anger to formulate a reply.
He smirks at your silence before brushing past you, deliberately bumping into your shoulder as if to remind you just how insignificant he believes you to be. The force is slight, but it feels heavier, laden with the weight of everything heā€™s taken away from you in the matter of mere minutes.
The chilly breeze cuts through the quiet, and you feel it settle deep into your bones, a reminder of just how cold the world can be.
"Miss Choi!" a little voice pierces through the haze of your flashback, pulling you back to reality. Your eyes shift from the bleacher stands outside to the source of the voice. A little girl waves her broken color pencil in the air, her tiny face scrunched in distress.
You force a smile, the corners of your lips lifting as you walk towards her. "Give me that, let me sharpen it for you, Sera." you say softly, patting her head. She nods cutely, her eyes wide with trust and gratitude.
You exhale deeply, the weight in your chest still pressing down as you make your way to the trash can. As the sharpener scrapes against the pencil, you think to yourself. Stop dwelling on the past.
You knew how deeply you felt for Jungkook. He was more than just a fleeting love... he was a part of you, your safe place. But the weight of Junghyun's threat had been too much to bear. It wasnā€™t a fight you could win, not against soemone as powerful as him.
The memory of that day gnaws at you, the helplessness, the bitterness of making a decision you despised with every fiber of your being. But what choice did you have?
Handing the pencil back to Sera, you muster another soft smile. Her joyful expression tugs at your heart, a stark contrast to the storm inside you.
All you can do now is hope that Jungkook is living a happy life, far from the shadows of the truth that forced you apart.
//
Jungkook adjusts his position in the sleek leather chair, trying to focus on the ongoing meeting. The conference room hums with the low murmur of voices as his team discusses the logistics of their next community outreach initiative.
The large screen at the front displays a vibrant presentation, but his mind drifts, struggling to stay anchored in the moment.
ā€œMr. Jeon.ā€ Eunwoo, the Chief Operating Officer, speaks up, pulling him back to reality. ā€œWeā€™re finalizing the details for the event at the Sunflower Orphanage this weekend.ā€ he says, his tone calm but purposeful.
ā€œItā€™s part of our ā€˜Healthy Futuresā€™ program.ā€ Eunwoo continues, ā€œWhere we teach the kids about nutrition and provide them with tools to build healthier habits.ā€
Jungkook nods, his jaw tightening slightly. He taps his pen against the notepad in front of him, the blank page mirroring his lack of focus. ā€œGood. Ensure we send enough materials for the interactive sessions. Iā€™ll review the activity plans later today.ā€
Eunwoo presses on. ā€œWeā€™re also organizing a cooking demonstration for the older kids and distributing care packages with nutritious snacks and recipe guides. It might be a good idea for you to attend. I think the kids would really enjoy meeting you.ā€
Jungkook exhales softly, running a hand through his hair. Public appearances at these events are part of his responsibility, something he takes seriously. Yet, the thought of being surrounded by bright-eyed children feels heavier than usual, a strange weight pressing against his chest.
ā€œIā€™ll check my schedule.ā€ he replies, his tone measured, masking the unease he canā€™t quite shake.
As the meeting concludes, Jungkook steps out of the conference room, loosening his tie as he makes his way towards his office. The familiar click of shoes on the polished floor follows close behind, signaling his secretary, Jimin, is trailing him.
ā€œYour schedule is free, Mr. Jeon.ā€ Jimin remarks, a teasing edge in his voice. ā€œItā€™s literally the weekend.ā€ Jungkook rolls his eyes, letting out a long sigh. ā€œI know, but I just donā€™t feel like going.ā€ he mutters, his stride purposeful as he heads towards his cabin.
Jimin quickens his pace to match Jungkookā€™s, his tone light but persistent. ā€œThe kids would love it, Mr. Jeon. Plus, itā€™s your responsibility.ā€
Jungkook groans inwardly, knowing thereā€™s no winning an argument when Jimin uses that reasoning. ā€œFine.ā€ he relents, glancing over his shoulder with a pointed glare. ā€œBut... youā€™re coming with me.ā€
ā€œOf course.ā€ Jimin quips with a smirk, unfazed. ā€œI go wherever my boss goes.ā€
Jungkook shakes his head, a faint smile tugging at his lips despite himself, before pushing open the door to his cabin. ā€œYouā€™re insufferable.ā€ he mutters, disappearing inside. Jimin grins to himself, adjusting his tie. ā€œItā€™s part of the job.ā€ he mutters quietly before heading back to his desk.
//
The familiar scent of antiseptic and faint floral air freshener envelops you as you step into the hospital. You glance around, taking in the sight of doctors briskly walking in their white coats, nurses tending to charts, and patients navigating the lobby with family members by their sides. The soft hum of conversations and the occasional beep of monitors create a somber yet steady rhythm.
You make your way to the reception desk, offering a small smile to the woman behind the counter. Her face lights up with recognition.
ā€œYouā€™re early today.ā€ she notes gently. You nod, your expression soft. ā€œI just missed Beomgyu.ā€ you admit, your voice barely above a whisper. She smiles warmly, her eyes filled with understanding. ā€œGo ahead.ā€ she says, motioning towards the elevator.
You thank her with a brief smile before turning and stepping into the elevator, pressing the button to take you to the floor where your brotherā€™s room is.
The soft chime of the elevator brings you back to reality as the doors slide open. You walk down the familiar corridor, each step feeling heavier as you approach his room. Pushing the door open, your breath catches in your throat as your eyes land on Beomgyu. His motionless body lies on the bed, the faint hum of medical equipment the only sign of life. Four years. Itā€™s been four long years, and he hasnā€™t moved an inch.
You sit down in the chair next to his bed, your hands trembling as you reach for his. His hand is cold in yours, and the weight of it brings tears to your eyes. But you blink them away, determined to stay strong.
ā€œHey, Gyu.ā€ you whisper, brushing your thumb gently over his knuckles. Your voice is soft, filled with a bittersweet mix of hope and sorrow. ā€œIā€™m here.ā€
No matter how many times you see him like this, it never gets easier. Each visit feels like a fresh wound, a new wave of pain crashing over you. He was your only family and the sight of his still body, the steady beep of the monitor, and the faint rise and fall of his chest... it all feels both familiar and unbearable. Every time, itā€™s as if a tiny piece of your heart breaks all over again.
As you stare at his face, a sigh escapes your lips, heavy with the weight of countless unshed tears. "Gyu..." you whisper, your voice barely audible in the stillness of the room. "Itā€™s getting so hard." Your words falter, carried by the quiet hum of the machines that have become the soundtrack of his existence.
"No matter what I do... I just... I just canā€™t stop thinking about him." you confess, closing your eyes as the first tear escapes, tracing a slow, burning path down your cheek. Your grip on Beomgyuā€™s hand tightens, your thumb brushing over his knuckles in slow, rhythmic motions. Though his hand remains lifeless, you hold on as if itā€™s your last tether to sanity, as if somehow he can feel your anguish.
Maybe he hears me, you think, clinging to the hope that keeps you returning to this room day after day. "I miss him so much." you murmur, your voice cracking under the weight of those words. The sob that escapes your lips feels like a betrayal, exposing just how deeply the pain has taken root.
Beomgyu never met Jungkook... yet, in your heart, you know that if he ever did... he would have absolutely loved him.
You remember that one day you brought Jungkook here, to visit Beomgyu, his hand firmly holding yours as you led him down these sterile hallways.
He had sat beside you, his arm wrapped protectively around your trembling frame, as you told him about the accident that had stolen Beomgyuā€™s vibrant spirit and left him in this suspended state. Jungkookā€™s presence had been an anchor that day, steady and reassuring, his soft murmurs giving you the courage to speak through your tears.
And then, there was that promise. You can still hear your own voice, shaky but determined, as you looked into Jungkookā€™s eyes. "When Beomgyu wakes up, youā€™ll be the first to know." The memory feels like a lifetime ago, a fragment of a world where hope felt tangible and love wasnā€™t wrapped in layers of regret.
Now, that promise lingers like a ghost, haunting you with its impossibility. The weight of it presses against your chest, suffocating in its quiet accusation.
You lower your head, your tears falling silently onto the sterile sheets, wishing for a reality where things could have been different... where Beomgyu would wake up, and Jungkook would still be yours to call.
//
After spending about forty minutes sitting by your brotherā€™s side, you feel the weight of time press down on you. With a reluctant sigh, you lean forward, pressing a gentle kiss on his cool forehead. The stillness of the room wraps around you like an unwanted embrace, amplifying the ache in your chest.
You stand, taking a moment to drink in the sight of him, his face so serene yet painfully distant. Finally, you force yourself to turn away, the sharp pull of grief hurting you even as your feet carry you towards the door.
The hospital hallways stretch before you, illuminated by fluorescent lights that feel too bright for the heaviness clouding your heart. The muted chatter of families and nurses echoes faintly around you, but you tune it out, your focus on the floor ahead.
Every step feels heavy, yet familiar... grief walking alongside you like an old companion. Youā€™re lost in thought, your mind lingering on memories you can't quite hold onto, when the sharp ring of your phone jolts you back to the present.
You pause, fishing the device out of your bag. The name on the screen makes a faint smile touch your lips. "Hey, Joonie." you greet, your tone soft but warm.
ā€œOh my god Y/N...Hi... where have you been?ā€ Namjoonā€™s voice filters through, steady yet tinged with his usual concern. ā€œI was just visiting Beomgyu.ā€ you reply, stepping into the elevator as the doors slide open.
ā€œAh...ā€ he murmurs, his voice dropping to a gentler note. ā€œSorry if I disturbed you.ā€
ā€œNo, not at all.ā€ you assure him, leaning against the elevator wall. ā€œI was just about to leave anyway. Whatā€™s up?ā€ Thereā€™s a slight pause on the other end before he continues talking. ā€œI wanted to check if youā€™re coming to the orphanage this weekend. You know... for the volunteering session.ā€
The mention of the orphanage brings a warmth to your chest. Your lips curve into a genuine smile as you think of the place thatā€™s come to feel like a second home. ā€œOf course Iā€™ll be there.ā€ you reply without hesitation.
ā€œThat's great!!ā€ Namjoon says, a hint of relief in his tone. ā€œMrs. Lee mentioned thereā€™s going to be some kind of workshop for the kids, though Iā€™m not really sure what itā€™s about.ā€
You hum thoughtfully, stepping out of the elevator as it dings open on the ground floor. ā€œA workshop? That sounds interesting. I guess weā€™ll just have to wait and see what it's about.ā€ you muse, the faint hum of curiosity threading through your voice.
Namjoon chuckles lightly. ā€œYeah, seems like it. Anyways, you get home safe, Y/N-ah. I'll see you on the weekend.ā€ he says. ā€œSee you Joonie... Bye.ā€ you reply, your smile lingering as the call ends.
As you slip your phone back into your bag and step into the cool evening air, a quiet sense of purpose washes over you. The orphanage, specifically, the Sunflower Orphanage, holds a deeply rooted place in your heart.
Itā€™s not just a building, itā€™s a chapter of your life, a part of your story written alongside your brother, Beomgyu as the two of you grew up there and navigated a world that often felt too vast and too indifferent.
Volunteering there every weekend for the past month with Namjoon hasnā€™t just been about giving back to the place that shaped you, itā€™s become a way to honor the struggles you and Beomgyu once faced.
Itā€™s a way of making peace with the past while helping to build a brighter future for the children still living it. The act of helping others has started to feel like a balm for your soul, a small piece of healing in a journey that has felt insurmountable at times.
More than that, itā€™s helped you stay busy, distracted, keeping your mind from wandering too often to the void that has been lingering in your life for the past four months, an emptiness youā€™re not ready to confront fully yet.
Every smile from the kids, every hug, every story they share with you reminds you why youā€™ve always wanted to be a kindergarten teacher.
Now, being able to follow your dream and also volunteer at the very orphanage you grew up in, doing your best to give these children the care and love you once longed for, feels profoundly rewarding.
Thereā€™s a bittersweet comfort in walking the same halls you once did, now as a volunteer instead of a resident. You find joy in helping the kids paint their dreams on blank canvases, in reading stories that spark their imaginations, and in simply being a presence they can rely on.
The Orphanage, with its chipped walls and resilient spirit, has become more than a part of your history... itā€™s a part of your healing, too.
//
Saturday
"Shit, shit." you mutter under your breath, hastily paying the cab driver before dashing towards the entrance of the orphanage. You were supposed to be here early today, especially since you knew there was a workshop planned for the kids.
Mrs. Lee had mentioned needing help with the setup and cleanup, and youā€™d eagerly offered. But luck hadnā€™t been on your side. First, your original cab broke down, forcing you to find another. Then, traffic decided to conspire against you, dragging out what shouldā€™ve been a quick journey into an agonizing wait.
As you ran up the steps at the entrance, slightly out of breath, your eyes catch on something that brings you to an abrupt halt. A large banner hangs above the double doors, bold letters printed across it. The sight of it makes your stomach churn.
ā€œNo way...ā€ you whisper, realization dawning like a bucket of ice water poured over your head as you read the banner. ā€œThis isā€¦ Jungkookā€™s workshop?ā€
You stand frozen, trying to process what youā€™re seeing. The placards stationed around the entrance leave no room for doubt. Each one bears the unmistakable logo of his company. The presentation materials stacked neatly by the door, the branded posters, and even the staff moving equipment inside all scream his involvement.
You inhale sharply, the air catching in your throat. Of course, it had to be here. Of all the orphanages in the city, the one youā€™ve been volunteering at for the past month had to be the very place where Jungkook... your ex boyfriend, Jungkook... is hosting a workshop. The universe really has a twisted sense of humor sometimes.
ā€œFuck.ā€ you mutter, closing your eyes and trying to calm the storm brewing in your chest. You press a hand against the doorframe to steady yourself, taking deep breaths to fight off the anxiety creeping up your spine.
Your mind races with questions youā€™re not sure you want answers to. Is he here? Or is this one of those events where his employees take the lead while he stays behind the scenes? Should you turn around and leave before anyone notices, or would that make things worse?
You glance back at the cab, still idling by the curb. For a fleeting second, the idea of jumping back in and leaving tempts you. But then you hear the sound of childrenā€™s laughter filtering through the open doors, mingling with the excited chatter of the staff, and you know you canā€™t just leave.
Bracing yourself, you take another deep breath and step inside, your heart pounding harder with each step. The familiar warmth of the orphanage wraps around you, but today it feels heavier, tinged with the tension youā€™re carrying. You repeat a silent mantra, trying to ground yourself. Stay professional. This is about the kids. Nothing else matters.
ā€œIā€™ll justā€¦ Iā€™ll just pretend I donā€™t know him.ā€ you mutter under your breath, nodding to yourself as your footsteps echo in the hallway.
//
As you step into the bustling main hall, your eyes land on Namjoon almost immediately. The minute he spots you too, it doesnā€™t take long for him to weave his way through the crowd towards you, his expression a mix of shock and concern. ā€œY/Nā€¦ā€ he begins, his voice low but urgent as he reaches you. ā€œI had no idea this was going to be his workshop.ā€ The disbelief in his tone mirrors your own feelings.
You throw your head back, a groan escaping your lips. ā€œI know. What the hell am I supposed to do? Is he really here, though? Or is it just his team running the workshop?ā€ you ask, a flicker of hope creeping into your voice as you glance at him.
Namjoon hesitates, his lips pressing into a thin line as if heā€™s trying to cushion the blow. ā€œUnfortunatelyā€¦ā€ he starts, his tone apologetic. ā€œHeā€™s here. I just saw him talking to Mrs. Lee a few minutes ago.ā€ You close your eyes, rubbing your temples. ā€œThis is so, so, so not fair.ā€ you mutter, your frustration bubbling over.
ā€œHeyā€¦ā€ Namjoonā€™s voice softens as he places his hands on your shoulders, steadying you. His calm presence is like an anchor in the midst of your swirling emotions. ā€œYouā€™re going to be fine. I know breaking up with him was hard for you, but right now... the best you can do is just stay professional. Pretend like you donā€™t know him and Iā€™m sure he wonā€™t approach youā€¦ I hope.ā€ he adds with a small, uncertain smile.
You let out a shaky sigh, your shoulders slumping under the weight of the situation. Namjoonā€™s logic makes sense, but it does little to calm the storm brewing inside you. ā€œI havenā€™t seen him in four months, Joon.ā€ you admit, your voice shaky. ā€œAnd now, of all times, I have to see him? Here?ā€
Namjoon offers you a sympathetic look, his hand squeezing your shoulder reassuringly. ā€œI know itā€™s hard, but I know youā€™ve got this. Just try your best to avoid him.ā€
You nod slowly, though youā€™re far from convinced. This isnā€™t a situation you can simply walk away from. Jungkookā€™s presence is inevitable now, and the thought of seeing him again, after everything, sends a whirlwind of emotions crashing through you.
You're aware Jungkook won't be expecting to see you here today and you can't help but wonder what his reaction will be when he actually ends up seeing you. Would his expression shift the moment he spots you? Would it be one of cold indifference, barely a flicker of acknowledgment? Or something sharper like anger, disappointment, perhaps even sadness? The possibilities swirl in your mind, each one more unsettling than the last.
Shaking your head, you force yourself to brush the questions aside. Thereā€™s no time to dwell on this right now. You take a steadying breath and look around the busy hall. Itā€™s high time you start helping out. After all, youā€™re already late, and the least you can do is make up for lost time by pitching in wherever youā€™re needed.
//
Once all the kids are settled in their seats, their excitement bubbling over in the form of giggles and whispers, you step back, making your way to the back of the room. Namjoon is already there, his arms crossed loosely as he leans against the wall. You take your place beside him, exhaling deeply, trying to calm your heart and mind.
As the workshop begins, your eyes inevitably drift to the front of the room. Jungkook stands there, effortlessly commanding attention. Heā€™s dressed sharply but casually, the rolled-up sleeves of his button-down shirt exposing his tattooed forearm. His presence is magnetic, and itā€™s no surprise that even the youngest kids are riveted as he begins to speak.
ā€œThis program is called 'Healthy Futures'.ā€ he starts, his tone warm and inviting. ā€œItā€™s about giving you the knowledge and tools to take care of your health. Eating the right food, staying active, and understanding how to take care of your bodies... itā€™s not just important now, but itā€™ll help you for years to come.ā€
He gestures to a large poster board displaying colorful illustrations of fruits, vegetables, and simple meal plans. ā€œToday, weā€™ll talk about nutrition, and weā€™ll even have some fun activities to show you how to make smart food choices. Youā€™ll see how easy it can be to make meals that are both delicious and good for you.ā€
The kids are wide-eyed, soaking up every word. Jungkookā€™s ability to connect with them is undeniable. As he dives into the presentation, explaining concepts in simple, engaging terms and peppering his talk with questions to keep the kids involved, a small smile tugs at your lips.
You watch as he crouches down to a childā€™s level, handing them a flashcard and encouraging them to name the food group it belongs to. The way his eyes light up with genuine enthusiasm when the child gets it right is a sight that momentarily softens the ache in your chest.
You canā€™t help but smile, even if itā€™s bittersweet. Seeing him like this... passionate, caring, and entirely in his element... reminds you of the man you fell in love with. His natural charm, the way he effortlessly makes others feel seen and valued, is just as captivating now as it was then.
Namjoon nudges you gently. ā€œYou okay?ā€ he asks, his voice low. You nod again, your gaze fixed on Jungkook. ā€œYeah.ā€ you whisper, though the lump forming in your throat makes it a struggle to get the word out. ā€œIā€™m fine.ā€ you say.
//
As Jungkook wraps up his talk, his voice is steady and warm, a reflection of the effort heā€™s poured into making this workshop meaningful. ā€œAlright, kids, now itā€™s time for the fun part...ā€ he announces with a grin.
ā€œMy team is going to help you make a simple, healthy snack, something delicious and easy that you can make yourselves... so follow them and they'll guide you through the process." he says.
The children erupt in cheers and applause, their excitement echoing through the hall. Jungkookā€™s smile widens at their enthusiasm, the earlier reluctance he felt about being here melting away. Itā€™s moments like these that make everything worth it. Seeing their faces light up is a reward far greater than any professional accolade.
As the kids begin to disperse, following the other employees out of the hall, Jungkook takes a moment to glance around, his eyes scanning the room to take in the atmosphere. And then he suddenly sees you.
Jungkook lips part a watches you intently, his eyes trailing as you exchange words with Namjoon before following him out of the room. His throat feels dry, his mind reeling. She'sā€¦ here? The words echo in his head as his heart pounds erratically against his ribcage.
He gulps, trying to steady himself, but the unexpected sight of you has thrown him completely off balance. Before he can fully process his spiraling thoughts, Jiminā€™s voice cuts through the haze.
ā€œMr. Jeon, shall we?ā€ he prompts, his tone professional but gentle, unknowingly grounding Jungkook back to the present. He blinks, nodding faintly as he forces his legs to move, trailing behind his secretary towards the activity room.
But just when he enters the activity room, what he doesn't expect is for you to be the first person he sees. Youā€™re standing just a few feet away, holding a precarious stack of trays to distribute it among the kids. Your focus is elsewhere, until your eyes suddenly meet his. The world tilts for a moment as your face registers a mix of shock and disbelief.
The impact of seeing him here, so close, sends a jolt through you. Your grip falters, and before you can stop it, the trays slip from your hands, the clattering sound echoing through the room as everything scatters across the floor.
The kids go silent, their chatter replaced by a stunned hush as all eyes turn towards you. The embarrassment and panic that flood your system make your skin prickle, but before you can even begin to move, Jungkook is already in front of you.
ā€œAre you... are you okay?ā€ His voice is low, concerned, his hands gently closing over yours as if to steady you. His touch is firm yet hesitant, and the warmth of his palms against your skin sends a shiver through you.
You can barely process his words, your heart pounding too loudly in your ears. Your lips part, but no sound comes out as you struggle to respond. The way heā€™s looking at you... those familiar dark eyes filled with a mixture of worry and something deeper, makes it impossible to think straight.
ā€œI uhhh... Iā€™m fine.ā€ you finally stammer, your voice barely above a whisper. Your cheeks burn as you quickly try to pull your hands back, but he doesnā€™t let go immediately. His fingers linger for a second longer than necessary, as if heā€™s reluctant to lose the contact.
Namjoon, having watched the entire scene unfold, clears his throat as he approaches. ā€œY/N, are you alright? Did you hurt yourself?ā€ he asks, his tone gentle yet purposeful, as if trying to diffuse the tension.
ā€œIā€™m fine.ā€ you repeat, louder this time, forcing yourself to look away from Jungkook as you pull your hand away from his and focus on the mess on the floor. You crouch down, starting to pick up the scattered trays, desperate to avoid his eyes. Namjoon joins you without a word, but you can feel Jungkookā€™s gaze still fixed on you.
Jimin steps forward, clearly confused by the sudden commotion. ā€œMr. Jeon, should we...ā€ he starts, glancing between Jungkook and the scene before him, but Jungkook barely acknowledges him. His focus is solely on you, his mind racing as he tries to process everything.
For Jungkook, this moment feels surreal. He hadnā€™t prepared himself for seeing you... not here, not like this. And now, with you so close yet seemingly so far, the weight of everything unsaid between you presses down on him like a tidal wave.
He wants nothing more than to just hold you, to pull you close and take in every detail of your face. These four months have been nothing short of hell, filled with an unrelenting ache for your presence.
But as he watches you so obviously avoiding him, he feels rooted to the spot, his mind scrambling to find the right words... words that refuse to come out.
//
Once the kids are fully immersed in their activity, you quietly slip out of the room, desperate for a moment to catch your breath. The weight of Jungkookā€™s presence had pressed on you relentlessly for the past twenty minutes, his gaze a constant reminder of the unresolved emotions between you two. Each stolen glance felt like it peeled back layers of the wall youā€™d carefully built around yourself.
The hallway is quiet as you walk towards the large window at the far end, your footsteps muffled against the polished floor. You pause there, gazing out at the orphanageā€™s small garden, the scene outside blurring as your mind spins.
Your fingers find the pendant hidden beneath your sweater, and you begin to fidget with it, the familiar texture grounding you. This pendant, this tiny piece of jewelry, holds a weight of its own, a connection to a past that feels both distant and ever-present.
Seeing Jungkook up close had hit you harder than you expected. He hadnā€™t changed. He was still just as beautiful, still radiated that quiet warmth that had always drawn people to him. The same warmth youā€™d once found comfort in.
And you missed him... God, you missed him in a way that made your chest ache. But that only made it worse. Because you couldnā€™t let yourself fall apart, not now, not when you had to face him. Youā€™re so lost in thought that the sound of a familiar voice startles you.
ā€œY/n.ā€
Your body tenses instantly. You donā€™t turn, your fingers reflexively tucking the pendant back beneath your sweater as if itā€™s some fragile secret you need to protect. You stay facing the window, your breaths shallow as you try to steady your heartbeat.
ā€œYouā€¦ wonā€™t even look at me?ā€ Jungkook's voice is soft, hesitant, but the pain in it cuts through you like a blade. You bite your lip, your eyes still fixed on the view outside, but all you can feel is him. The rawness of his words sinks into you, heavy and unshakable.
ā€œY/nā€¦ā€ His voice comes again, quieter this time, almost breaking. Itā€™s not just a name... itā€™s a plea, one you wish you could ignore but know you canā€™t.
You hate this. You hate that Jungkook, of all people... the kindest, most selfless soul youā€™ve ever known... is standing here now, burdened by the pain you caused him. You hate that youā€™re the one who turned his world upside down. And yet, even now, you canā€™t bring yourself to face him.
You take a deep breath, steeling yourself as you turn to face him. Your expression is blank, a carefully constructed mask. ā€œWhat?ā€ The word comes out cold, clipped, and you instantly regret the sharpness of your tone.
Jungkookā€™s gaze softens as he studies you, his dark eyes tracing the contours of your face. You still look the same... still breathtaking, still the person he fell hopelessly in love with. But thereā€™s something different too, a guardedness that wasnā€™t there before, a distance he doesnā€™t know how to bridge.
ā€œHowā€¦ how have you been? Itā€™s been a while.ā€ he says softly, his voice laced with hesitation as he takes a tentative step closer.
ā€œIā€™m fine.ā€ The words come quickly, too quickly, as if youā€™re desperate to end this conversation before it can even begin. You donā€™t meet his gaze for long, your eyes flicking away like youā€™re afraid of what he might see.
Every second in his presence feels like an eternity, the weight of the emotions swirling between you both, suffocating. You canā€™t do this. Not now, not like this. The effort of keeping your face neutral, of pretending you donā€™t feel the same pull towards him that you always have... itā€™s too much.
Without another word, you move to step past him, your focus solely on the hallway ahead. But before you can escape, his hand reaches out, catching your wrist. The warmth of his touch sends a jolt through you, halting you in your tracks.
ā€œWait.ā€ he says, his voice quiet but firm. Thereā€™s a vulnerability in his tone that makes your chest tighten, and for a moment, you canā€™t bring yourself to look at him.
You take a deep breath, feeling the warmth of his hand wrapped gently around your wrist. Itā€™s almost unbearable... how much harder this is than youā€™d expected. Having him so close, right there behind you, stirs emotions youā€™ve fought tirelessly to suppress.
Slowly, you turn over your shoulder, finally meeting his eyes. The intensity in them is overwhelming, a deep sea of emotions you canā€™t bring yourself to name. They hold so much... questions, pain, longing and you feel a lump rise in your throat as you let out a shaky breath.
ā€œLet me go, Jungkook.ā€ you say quietly, your voice steadier than you feel. You try to tug your wrist free, but his grip tightens ever so slightly, not enough to hurt but enough to keep you rooted in place.
ā€œI didnā€™t expect to see you hereā€¦ā€ he says softly, his voice low and filled with something you canā€™t quite place. Heā€™s ignoring your plea, but thereā€™s no malice in it, only hesitation, like he doesnā€™t want to let go just yet. ā€œIā€™m volunteering.ā€ you reply flatly, forcing the words out without a hint of emotion. ā€œAnd I need to go.ā€ you add, your tone clipped as you yank your wrist out of his hold.
This time, he lets you go, his hand falling to his side as he watches you stride away from him as fast as you can manage. You donā€™t dare look back, even as you feel his gaze linger on you, burning into your retreating figure. Your heart pounds with each step, your emotions bubbling dangerously close to the surface, but you donā€™t stop. You canā€™t.
You barge into the restroom, letting the door shut heavily behind you. The cool air does nothing to soothe the storm raging inside you. Instantly, your hands fly up to cover your face, a desperate attempt to stifle the sobs threatening to escape.
Your chest heaves as you fight against the tears that burn at the edges of your eyes, your palms pressing against your cheeks as if holding yourself together. But itā€™s futile. The weight of seeing him again... his voice, his touch, the unspoken pain in his eyes, comes crashing down on you all at once.
A strangled breath escapes your lips, and you lean against the sink for support. Your fingers grip the edge of the cold porcelain as if itā€™s the only thing keeping you grounded. You stare at your reflection in the mirror, your blurred vision making it hard to focus.
ā€œThis isnā€™t how it was supposed to be.ā€ you whisper to yourself, your voice breaking. Your tears fall freely now, streaking down your cheeks as the emotions youā€™ve bottled up for months finally spill over. The ache of his presence, the agony of your unresolved feelings... itā€™s all too much.
You press a trembling hand against your chest, trying to steady the harsh pounding of your heart. For a moment, you close your eyes, taking deep breaths as you attempt to compose yourself. But the pain lingers, sharp and unrelenting.
//
The workshop winds down, the chatter of children and clinking of utensils slowly fading into the background. Youā€™ve spent the entire afternoon and evening carefully maneuvering to avoid Jungkookā€™s gaze, your heart in a constant state of unease.
Every glance he threw your way, every fleeting moment you felt his presence nearby, only made the weight in your chest heavier.
By the time the clock strikes 8, exhaustion has seeped into your bones, not just from the work but also from the emotional toll of the day. Mrs. Lee thanks you warmly as you help her finish setting up dinner. Namjoon remains by your side, quiet but supportive, his presence a comforting anchor in the chaos of your thoughts.
ā€œYou did great today.ā€ he murmurs softly as you both step out of the main hall, his tone gentle. You offer him a faint smile, appreciating his effort to lighten your mood, but the turmoil inside you is too heavy to shake off completely.
Finally, you decide itā€™s time to leave. Walking down the stairs by the entrance, you feel the cool evening breeze brush against your cheeks. You glance up at the darkening sky, the stars peeking through faintly, their distant glow a stark contrast to the storm swirling within you.
Pulling your coat tighter around you, you fix your bag on your shoulder and bury your hands in your pockets. The thought of going home to the solace of your quiet living room, sappy rom-coms, and a tub of ice cream feels like the only reprieve youā€™ll get tonight.
As you reach the bus stop, you take a seat on the cold bench, staring at the empty road ahead. The world around you feels quiet and still, yet your mind is an undying chaos. Your thoughts drift back to Jungkook... his voice, his touch, the way his eyes silently pleaded with you earlier and just how much you miss him.
You sigh heavily, resting your elbows on your knees and burying your face in your hands. The ache of seeing him again lingers like a ghost, refusing to leave you be.
As you attempt to gather your thoughts, the soft hum of an approaching engine disrupts your reverie. Your head lifts instinctively, and before you can process it, a sleek car pulls to a stop right in front of you. The headlights cast a gentle glow on the empty road, but itā€™s the sight of the driver that makes your breath hitch.
Your lips part in surprise, your brows furrowing as the window rolls down. There he is, his dark eyes fixed on you.
ā€œY/n.ā€ Jungkook calls softly, his voice carrying over the quiet evening. You sigh, a mix of frustration and weariness bubbling within you. Without a word, you stand, shifting your gaze to the left, hoping to catch sight of the bus that feels agonizingly far from arriving.
ā€œY/n, itā€™s late. Let me drop you home.ā€ Jungkook says, his tone gentle but insistent. Your heart stumbles at the offer, the thought of being alone with him sending your nerves into overdrive. You donā€™t trust yourself... not with how raw and exposed you feel after today. So, you do what youā€™ve been doing all afternoon. You ignore him.
Fixing your gaze on the road ahead, you refuse to acknowledge him. ā€œY/n, pleaseā€¦ā€ His voice softens, almost breaking. You clench your jaw, the plea digging into you, forcing you to glance at him. ā€œJust go, Jungkook.ā€ you snap flatly, your tone colder than you intended.
Jungkookā€™s grip on the steering wheel tightens as your words hit him like a blow. He swallows hard, his gaze never leaving you. ā€œIā€™ll just drop you home. Please, itā€™s not safe this late.ā€ he persists, his determination unwavering.
You shake your head, muttering under your breath as you start walking down the pavement, each step heavier than the last. But Jungkook, true to his nature, doesnā€™t back down so easily.
The car begins to crawl forward, matching your pace as you walk. His persistence is both frustrating and heartbreaking. You can feel his gaze through the window, silently urging you to stop, to listen, to look at him.
ā€œY/n.ā€ he calls out again, his voice tinged with desperation. Your chest tightens as you quicken your steps, hoping to outrun the storm of emotions brewing within you. But no matter how far you walk, Jungkook is right there, his car trailing you like a shadow, refusing to let you go.
The sound of the car suddenly stopping and the door opening breaks through the rhythm of your footsteps, and you stiffen. You donā€™t turn around, determined to maintain your resolve, but then you feel it... a firm yet gentle hand gripping your arm, spinning you around effortlessly.
Your eyes widen as you find yourself face-to-face with Jungkook, the intensity in his gaze pinning you in place. His breath is uneven, as if heā€™s been chasing you, though he hasnā€™t. ā€œPlease.ā€ he says, his voice raw and pleading. ā€œJust let me drop you home. Thatā€™s literally all Iā€™m asking.ā€
His words hang heavy between you, and for a moment, you close your eyes, exhaling sharply. His persistence is unrelenting, and deep down, you know your bus isnā€™t arriving anytime soon to save you from this situation.
You pull your arm free from his grasp, the warmth of his touch lingering even as you step back. Without meeting his gaze, you walk towards his car, your resolve cracking under the weight of exhaustion and inevitability.
Sliding into the passenger seat, you settle into the cold leather with a resigned sigh, the door closing behind you with a soft thud. He'll just drop me home, you convince yourself as you donā€™t look at him, keeping your gaze fixed ahead.
Jungkook quietly gets back into the driverā€™s seat, his movements careful as if afraid to shatter the fragile silence that now envelops the two of you. The hum of the engine rises again, but neither of you say anything, the tension stretching thin as the car begins to move.
As Jungkook drives, the rhythmic sound of the tires on the road fills the car, but the silence between you feels louder, heavier. Your gaze remains fixed outside the window, the passing streetlights casting fleeting glows across your face. Your hands clutch your purse tightly on your lap, a silent anchor to steady your racing emotions.
The stillness is suddenly broken by his voice, soft but heavy with restraint. ā€œSoā€¦ how have you been?ā€ he asks, his eyes focused on the road ahead.
You don't answer. You donā€™t move. You donā€™t flinch. Your determination to stay silent grows stronger as you think about the consequences of letting him back into your life. The jagged edges of your reality press against you like shards of glass.
ā€œY/nā€¦ā€ he calls out again, his voice gentler this time, but still, you keep your gaze fixed outside, ignoring the crackling tension in the air.
He exhales audibly, the pain in his voice more evident now. ā€œY/n, I havenā€™t seen you in four months... and now youā€™re here, but youā€™re acting like I donā€™t even exist.ā€ His words tremble, and you feel the sharp sting of guilt twisting in your chest.
ā€œYouā€™re right here.ā€ he murmurs, almost to himself. ā€œBut why do you feel so far away?ā€
Your lips tighten into a thin line, and your grip on your purse grows tighter. You can feel his eyes on you, searching, pleading, but you refuse to meet his gaze. ā€œAre you really not going to talk to meā€¦ at all?ā€ he asks, his voice breaking slightly at the end.
Jungkook glances at your side profile, his knuckles white against the steering wheel as he fights to hold himself together. The hurt in his chest feels unbearable, a weight pressing harder with every second of your silence.
Heā€™s done his best to come to terms with your absence, with the breakup, even when the harsh reasons you gave felt like flimsy walls hiding something bigger. But now, sitting this close to you and being treated like a stranger, it cuts deeper than he expected.
ā€œYou know whatā€¦ā€ Jungkook suddenly mutters under his breath, and though you hear the shift in his tone, you donā€™t move, donā€™t react. But then the car swerves abruptly, jerking to the left. Your head snaps towards him, eyes wide with shock as you clutch the handlebar above your seat.
ā€œJungkook!ā€ you exclaim, your heart hammering as you notice the road signs signaling that heā€™s no longer heading towards your neighborhood.
ā€œI canā€™t do this anymore.ā€ he says, his voice firm but tinged with exhaustion. His grip on the steering wheel tightens and his foot presses harder on the gas pedal, the car speeding up.
ā€œJungkook, what are you doing?? Slow down !!ā€ you demand, trying to mask the panic creeping into your voice. ā€œWe need to talk.ā€ he states simply, his eyes focused on the road ahead as if thereā€™s nothing else in the world but his determination.
Your breath catches in your throat, and your mind races. ā€œJungkook, turn the car around.ā€ you say firmly, though your voice wavers slightly.
But he doesnā€™t listen. Instead, his jaw tightens, and the speed of the car increases further, the scenery outside blurring. Then it hits you... heā€™s heading in the direction towards his place.
ā€œJungkookā€¦ā€ you begin, your voice softer now, a mixture of anger and disbelief.
He doesnā€™t answer this time, his silence carrying more weight than words ever could. His gaze remains locked forward, the muscles in his jaw ticking as if heā€™s trying to rein in the storm brewing within him.
You glance outside, feeling both trapped and helpless. Every instinct in you screams to argue, to demand that he stops, but a part of you... a small, stubborn part wonders what heā€™s so desperate to say.
After 10 tense minutes of silence, the car finally comes to a halt in front of Jungkook's building. He doesnā€™t waste a second, stepping out of the car and slamming the door behind him. You watch him from the corner of your eye, your hands still gripping the purse on your lap, as he strides purposefully to your side of the car.
Before you can even process whatā€™s happening, he pulls the door open, and the chill of the night air sweeps over you, making you shiver. He leans down slightly, his dark eyes locking with yours, filled with an unrelenting determination that sends your heart racing.
ā€œCome with me.ā€ he says, his voice steady but soft as he extends a hand towards you. You stare at his hand, conflicted, the weight of the moment pressing down on your chest. You feel cornered, unable to escape this situation heā€™s forced you into.
ā€œJungkookā€¦ā€ you begin, but the words catch in your throat. He sighs, his shoulders sagging slightly, as if the plea in your voice strikes a chord in him. But before you can say anything else, he gently grabs your wrist. The touch is soft, hesitant, but thereā€™s an urgency to his movements as he guides you out of the car.
You stumble slightly, your body still resistant, but he steadies you with a firm yet careful grip. Heā€™s desperate, you can see it in the way his brows furrow, the way his lips press into a thin line as if heā€™s barely holding himself together. ā€œJungkook, I...ā€ you breathe out, the words getting stuck in your throat.
ā€œJustā€¦ please.ā€ he interrupts, his voice raw with emotion. ā€œI just wanna talk.... Please.ā€
His eyes search yours, and you can feel the ache in them, the unspoken pain heā€™s been carrying. Your chest tightens, and for a moment, youā€™re frozen, unable to say no, unable to pull away. He doesnā€™t give you a chance to argue further, his hand slipping from your wrist to your hand, his fingers curling around yours as he gently but firmly leads you towards his house.
You let out a shaky breath, the weight of the moment heavy in the air as you reluctantly follow him.
As Jungkook shuts the door to his apartment, the click echoes in the silence. He turns to face you, his eyes soft but piercing, like heā€™s searching for something heā€™s desperate to find.
ā€œY/n.ā€ he says, your name rolling off his tongue like a plea.
You try to avoid his gaze, looking anywhere but at him, but then his hands come up to cup your face, his warmth grounding you in a way that sends a pang through your chest. His touch is gentle, yet insistent, as if heā€™s afraid youā€™ll disappear if he lets go.
ā€œY/n, please.ā€ he murmurs, his voice trembling. ā€œJust talk to me.ā€
Your breath hitches, and you instinctively step back, only to feel the cool, unyielding wall against your back. Youā€™re cornered... literally and emotionally... and the weight of the moment bears down on you.
Your emotions, so carefully locked away, begin to bubble to the surface. Anger, regret, frustration, they all swirl together, threatening to consume you. Gritting your teeth, you grab his wrists and pull his hands away from your face.
ā€œJust leave me alone.ā€ you choke out, your voice breaking. The tears that have been fighting to escape finally spill over, cascading down your cheeks. Before you know it, youā€™re sobbing uncontrollably, your body trembling as the dam holding back your emotions shatters.
Jungkookā€™s eyes widen in shock as he watches you unravel before him. His heart clenches painfully at the sight of your tears, the sound of your sobs cutting through him like a knife. He steps closer instinctively, his hands hovering uncertainly as if unsure whether to comfort you or give you space.
ā€œY/nā€¦ā€ he begins, his voice soft and hesitant, but you shake your head violently, interrupting him.
ā€œYou canā€™t do this, Jungkook.ā€ you cry out, your voice trembling with frustration. ā€œAfter everything I did to cut you offā€¦ you canā€™t just... just pull me back like this.ā€
Your words hit him like a blow, and he takes a shaky step back, his eyes glistening with unshed tears.
ā€œDo you think this is easy for me?ā€ he finally says, his voice breaking. ā€œI didnā€™t want to pull you back, Y/n. But how am I supposed to let you go when I donā€™t even understand why you left?ā€
His words hang in the air, and you stare at him through your blurry vision, your heart pounding as his pain intertwines with yours. Youā€™re both standing on the edge of a precipice, the weight of your shared history threatening to pull you under.
The air between you feels heavy, thick with emotions neither of you can control anymore. Jungkookā€™s gaze locks onto your tear-streaked face, his breathing shallow as he watches the pain and turmoil in your eyes. Something inside him snaps, and before he can stop himself, he takes a step forward, closing the distance between you.
His hands cradle your face, trembling slightly, as he leans in and harshly presses his lips against yours. Itā€™s desperate, unrestrained, and raw. The suddenness of it makes you gasp, your breath hitching as his lips move against yours, pouring every unspoken word, every unanswered question into the kiss.
Your eyes flutter shut, and for a moment, your mind is overwhelmed by the flood of memories... his laugh, his touch, the way he used to make you feel like you were the only person that mattered. But as much as the kiss ignites a fire inside you, your tears donā€™t stop.
Jungkook feels the wetness of your tears against his palms, and it pulls him back abruptly. He steps away, his face etched with regret and panic, as if realizing he may have crossed a line he shouldnā€™t have.
ā€œI... Iā€™m sorry.ā€ he stammers, his voice shaking as he searches your face. ā€œI shouldnā€™t haveā€”ā€
Before he can finish, you grab the front of his shirt and pull him back towards you, your lips colliding with his in a kiss thatā€™s equally urgent and desperate. Your hands clutch onto him like heā€™s the only thing anchoring you to reality, and this time, the weight of all the emotions youā€™ve been holding back crashes into him.
Your kiss is messy, tinged with anger, longing, and sorrow, but itā€™s real. Itā€™s the connection youā€™ve been denying for so long. Jungkook responds immediately, his arms wrapping around you, pulling you closer as if afraid youā€™ll slip away again.
The world outside fades away, leaving only the two of you in this moment, grappling with the emotions youā€™ve tried so hard to suppress.
Your lips never part, not even for a second, as you start pulling each otherā€™s clothes off, letting them fall to the ground one after the other. Every single article of clothing gets discarded in a trail leading from his door step to his living room.
The heat between you intensifies, growing hotter and wilder with every second. Itā€™s like youā€™ve been starving for each other, for this moment, this connection for so long that now you canā€™t help but devour each other.
You know you shouldn't be doing this. You know you can't face the consequences of your impulsive actions, but your heart refuses to let go. You're completely consumed by the passion and intensity of the kiss, unable to pull yourself away even when you have so much on the line.
Even as you walk into his apartment, your lips remain connected, your hands gripping his arms, holding onto him as if youā€™re afraid heā€™ll disappear if you let go. The world spins around you as he picks up the pace, guiding you to the couch. Your feet brush against the soft carpet, sending shivers up your leg, and before you know it, you feel the cushion behind you.
The feeling of Jungkook on top of you is nothing less than heaven. You run your hands up and down his tattooed arm, feeling the way his muscles tense with each touch. His kisses trail down your neck, making you squirm under him.
ā€œFuck...ā€ he murmurs, his breath hot against your skin as he takes off your bra in a swift motion.
He groans softly, his eyes wide as they drink in the sight of you beneath him. Then his gaze falls to your collarbone, lingering on the familiar pendant resting against your skin.
"The... necklace." he notices, his fingers reaching out to brush it gently. His touch is reverent, almost hesitant, as if the small piece of jewelry holds all the words he canā€™t say. He looks up into your eyes, a subtle smile curving his lips.
"You... you never took it off?" he asks, his voice laced with slight disbelief.
"Never." you affirm softly, your voice steady yet tender. His eyes soften, glimmering with emotions too deep for words, and for a moment, it feels as if the necklace is the silent thread that has always held your hearts together.
ā€œIā€¦ā€ his voice trails, and you can tell heā€™s struggling to find the right words. ā€œI fucking missed you.ā€ he breathes out and without giving you a chance to respond, he leans down and presses his lips to your chest.
You let out a moan as he starts sucking on the skin between your breasts, and your hips squirm beneath him. ā€œKookā€¦ā€ you gasp as his mouth closes around one of your nipples, making you arch your back. He bites down gently, and you can't help but cry out in pleasure.
You can feel his body shaking on top of you, the desperation to get closer to you is so so evident. His hand slides up your leg and rests at your waist before slipping under your back, lifting your hips to meet his. The kiss that follows is sweet and gentle, like heā€™s trying to apologize for everything thatā€™s happened between you, even when it's not his fault.
Your hands move to his hair, twisting into the dark strands as you pull him even closer. You canā€™t stop yourself, you canā€™t resist him anymore. The feeling, the warmth, the electricity, itā€™s too hard to fight. Your body is craving his, and heā€™s giving you all the affection youā€™ve been craving for these past four dreadful months.
His lips trail down your body, stopping at the spot between your legs as he slides your underwear down your legs. You gasp as you watch him dip his head, the warmth of his tongue circling your clit. Your hands grip the couch, and your body arches in reaction to the pleasure heā€™s sending through your body.
ā€œFuck.ā€ you gasp, barely able to string the words together as he presses his face between your legs. Jungkook moans, his tongue licking around your clit in firm, steady strokes. Your hands move from the couch to his shoulders, pushing him further between your legs.
He looks up at you, his eyes filled with hunger and desire, his chin wet from your arousal, as he grips your hips and pulls you closer. He buries his tongue as deep as it can go, causing your body to jerk in reaction.
You cry out his name, your voice hoarse as your hands grip his hair. Jungkook feels himself get harder as he flattens his tongue, applying pressure to your clit. ā€œFuckā€¦ please... please Kook... donā€™t stop.ā€ you beg as he licks you faster, your hips rocking against his face.
Your moans echo through the empty apartment as Jungkook works you closer and closer to release. When he stops sucking your clit and presses his tongue deep inside of you instead, you lose it, your orgasm washing over you in waves.
You canā€™t do anything but lay there and take it, your legs shaking and twitching around his face as your body convulses with pleasure.
He kisses his way up your body, licking the sweat from your skin before he finally reaches your lips. The taste of your arousal on his lips sends heat through you, and you moan as his tongue enters your mouth.
Your tears are back, running down your cheeks as you try to process the moment. Jungkook pulls away from your lips and places his forehead against yours. His thumb softly wipes your tears away, as he tries to process this surreal moment himself.
ā€œFuck...ā€ he whispers as he slowly rubs his length against your core, sending sparks through your body. You feel the warmth of his skin against yours... your bodies pressed together in a way you can't comprehend.
ā€œI... I need you baby....ā€ Jungkook murmurs against your lips, his length rubbing against you. You breathe heavily as you nod, wanting him to just take you right here, right now.
With one swift motion, he pushes himself inside you, filling you completely. Your lips part as you take in the feeling of being stretched out by him.
Jungkook stills for a moment, taking in the feeling of finally being back inside of you. He thought heā€™d never have you like this again, that heā€™d lost you forever, but here he is, buried deep inside your warmth. His eyes stare into yours, watching your chest heave up and down as you try to adjust to the feeling you had so deeply missed.
You stare into him, sniffling as your tears refuse to stop flowing. ā€œI love you...ā€ you hear him say as he leans forward again, capturing your wet lips in an urgent kiss.
As the kiss grows intense, he starts moving his hips, thrusting in and out of you in a slow and steady pace. Your hands grip his arms, digging your nails into his skin as you arch your back. Jungkook kisses you harder, his moans filling the air around you.
His movements are filled with need and longing, like heā€™s afraid this is the last time heā€™ll get to make love to you. He wants to take in every moan, every thrust, every gasp he gets from you.
Youā€™re lost in the sensation, consumed by the pleasure Jungkook is giving you as his body moves over and into you. He holds you down, his weight pinning you to the couch as he makes love to you in his living room. You feel his hands gripping your hips, holding you in place as he thrusts deeper inside you.
Your legs wrap around his hips, pulling him closer as you gasp for air but his hands grip your legs, moving them up his body as he lifts your ankles to rest on his shoulders. The change of position causes him to slide deeper inside you, and you gasp as he hits a familiar spot inside and all you can see is stars.
ā€œOh god....ā€ you moan as he starts increasing his pace. Your lips part as the sensation washes over you. Jungkook leans down, pressing his lips to yours as he fucks you with reckless abandon. Heā€™s chasing his own release, but he wants you to come with him.
He thrusts into you over and over again, his hands gripping your waist as he holds himself up. Your hands are on his ass, pushing him closer, begging for more as he groans into your mouth.
Your moans fill the air as you feel your body build towards a second release. Jungkook feels it too, his pace picking up as he drives you over the edge once more. ā€œIā€™m...I'm coming...ā€ you cry, your nails digging into his skin.
Jungkook groans in response, his thrusts becoming wild and desperate. He fucks you like he canā€™t get enough, like heā€™ll never get to have you again.
You moan into his mouth as your orgasm washes over you once more. Your body convulses under him, and you canā€™t do anything but let it take you over. Jungkook grunts, his body shaking above you as he chases his own release.
ā€œFuck baby...ā€ he groans as he fills you up and collapses on top of you his body shuddering and his hips thrusting into you a few more times, stretching out his orgasm as much as he can. Your arms wrap around him, holding him close as you take in the warmth of his body against yours.
Jungkook presses a tender kiss to your shoulder, the gesture carrying a weight of emotions he canā€™t put into words. The moment feels surreal, almost fragile, as if one wrong move could shatter it.
He never imagined heā€™d hold you like this again, the warmth of your presence grounding him in a reality he once thought heā€™d lost forever. To him, this feels like a stolen dream... achingly beautiful, yet tinged with the fear that it might slip away.
He slowly rolls off you, settling beside you against the soft cushions of the couch. His arms wrap around you instinctively, holding you close as his eyes trace the lines of your face.
The exhaustion etched into your features tugs at his heart. His gaze drifts downward, gazing at the necklace around your neck. You didn't take it off and... that must mean something right? As he continues taking in the sight of you, he feels an overwhelming ache rise within him... he had missed you more than words could ever convey.
A thousand questions crowd his mind. He wants to speak, to ask, to understand, to unravel everything that had been left unsaid and find a way back to what you guys once were. But then he notices the way your eyelids flutter, heavy with weariness, and the soft, unsteady rhythm of your breaths as you try to calm yourself.
He swallows the urge to press for answers, deciding that for now, the questions can wait. Morning will come soon enough. Instead, he tightens his hold on you, his heart pounding in his chest as he silently wills himself to remain still. The warmth of your presence soothes him, and he closes his eyes, hoping that sleep will find him in the solace of this stolen moment.
//
Jungkook's eyebrows knit together in his sleep, a slight twitch running through his body as he shifts uncomfortably on the couch. His eyes flutter open, and he instinctively clutches the blanket against his chest. Blinking groggily, he glances around, the familiar sight of his apartment slowly coming into focus.
The realization that heā€™s on the couch sinks in, and like a tidal wave, the memory of last night crashes into him. His breath hitches, and he jolts upright, his heart pounding in his chest. Panic bubbles beneath the surface as he glances at the empty space behind him.
He looks down at the blanket draped over his body, a puzzled frown forming as he struggles to recall when or how it got there. His eyes dart around the room, searching for any sign of you, but the stillness of his apartment feels unnervingly hollow. The silence presses down on him, heavy and suffocating.
Rising to his feet, Jungkook starts moving through the apartment, his voice shaky as he calls out your name. "Y/N??" he tries again, his tone more urgent this time. But thereā€™s no answer.
Each step he takes only amplifies the sinking feeling in his chest. He checks the kitchen, the bathroom, his bedroom, even the balcony, but youā€™re nowhere to be found. His mind spirals, questioning if last night had been a cruel dream... a mirage conjured by his yearning.
Or had you truly been here, only to slip away quietly in the morning? The thought twists his stomach, leaving him nauseous as he leans against the wall, his hands trembling. Did he really lose you all over again?
Jungkook doesnā€™t waste a second. His movements are frantic, hands fumbling as he pulls on his clothes in haste, not even bothering to smooth out the wrinkles. His mind is racing, each thought more urgent than the last. He grabs his keys and bolts out the door, the sound of it slamming shut echoing through the empty hallway.
His heart pounds as he throws himself into the driverā€™s seat, the familiar hum of the engine roaring to life beneath him. His knuckles whiten as he grips the steering wheel, the tension radiating through his body. His eyes burn with exhaustion, but the ache in his chest far outweighs it.
The city is still waking up, the roads bathed in the soft glow of the morning sun. Jungkook doesnā€™t care. He presses harder on the accelerator, weaving through the sparse traffic with reckless determination. Every red light feels like a lifetime, every delay an unbearable agony.
He can't stop thinking about you. The way your touch felt like home, the way your lips trembled against his last night, and the way your tears spoke of everything you were too afraid to say. He canā€™t let that go. He wonā€™t.
The thought of losing you again, of waking up every morning knowing youā€™re out there but not by his side, terrifies him. Itā€™s a kind of pain he doesnā€™t think he can survive twice.
As he nears your neighborhood, his pulse quickens. He doesnā€™t know what heā€™ll say, or how youā€™ll react, but none of it matters. All he knows is that he needs you... more than air, more than anything.
Parking haphazardly in front of your house, he bolts towards your door, his heart hammering as he begins knocking. Thereā€™s no answer, and his anxiety only grows. He steps off your porch, wondering where you could be.
He rushes outside, reaching the pavement, desperately scanning the neighborhood, hoping to catch a glimpse of you somewhere.
He runs through the neighborhood, his heart pounding, the anxiety gnawing at him as he checks every corner, every familiar path, but you're nowhere to be seen. Yet, something inside him refuses to give up.
As he nears the park at the edge of the neighborhood, he slows down, taking a breath to steady himself. His eyes sweep over the quiet space, and in that moment, itā€™s as if time slows... until he sees you, sitting alone on a distant bench, your figure outlined against the soft glow of the morning light, looking smaller and more vulnerable than heā€™s ever seen you.
He wastes no time as he runs towards you, his footsteps growing louder as he approaches you, his figure growing more defined with every step. His heart is racing, not just from the frantic search, but from the sheer desperation to be close to you again, to make sure youā€™re okay.
You sit still, your eyes widening in disbelief as you realize heā€™s found you. A rush of emotions flood through you... surprise, guilt, and a wave of regret. You can't help but wonder how he managed to find you here.
You glance down, unable to meet his gaze as the memories of last night resurface. The vulnerability of the moment hits you hard. You had fled his apartment at dawn, unable to face him after everything. The way he had held you, the way everything felt so perfect in the heat of the moment... it scared you.
You knew you had no answers to his questions, no way to explain the reasons behind your past actions. And the truth? That was something you couldnā€™t give him, not now, not when you have so much to lose. The only thing left for you to do was leave him behind and slip away like a coward, hoping he wouldnā€™t follow.
But here he is, standing before you, his presence too much to ignore. You don't know whether to run again or finally face him.
Jungkookā€™s eyes are full of pain as he steps closer to you, his voice shaking with a mix of frustration and hurt. ā€œYou left.ā€ he breathes out, as if the weight of his words is too much to bear.
ā€œWhy... why did you leave?ā€ His voice cracks at the end, vulnerability spilling through in a way he canā€™t control.
You try to look away, but his gaze pulls you in. The truth, too raw and too close to the surface, is something you canā€™t escape. You can feel the crack in your heart widen with every passing second. "Jungkook... we're broken up." you whisper, barely meeting his eyes.
"No." he denies, the sharpness in his breath betraying the desperation in his chest. "Don't say that, especially after last night." His voice is pleading now, fragile, cracking in a way that shakes him to the core. His fists clench at his sides with the effort to keep himself together.
"How can you say that after everything? After what happened between us? How... can you just walk away like that? How can you pretend like... none of it mattered?"
He takes a step closer, his eyes burning with a need to understand, to hold on to the fragments of what he thought was still there. "The past four months... itā€™s been hell, Y/n. Iā€™ve been drowning in this silence, wondering every day what went wrong. I never got an answer. You just... left. Without a word, without a valid reason. And I hate it. I hate that I donā€™t know why. I hate that you just cut me off like I meant nothing. Like everything we had... it was all just a lie."
You look at him, the tears unknowingly streaming down your face. "Kook..." you start, but he cuts you off. "I tried to let go... I tried to make peace with it... but... but it hurts, Y/n. It hurts more than I can put into words, and I donā€™t even know what I did wrong." he pauses, trying to calm himself down.
"I donā€™t know what happened between us. Why did... why did you leave me? Why did you make me feel like I was nothing to you?" His voice cracks, the tears in his eyes threatening to spill over. You stare at him, the lump in your throat intensifying. "You... you were everything to me. I thought we had a future together, Y/n. But now, Iā€™m just... I'm just so lost.... I'm so lost without you."
Jungkook steps back for a moment, his hands running through his hair in frustration as he tries to make sense of it all. His breath is shallow, a quiet sob escaping him as he collects himself. "I need to know..." he mutters, barely audible. "Why? What... what happened? Please, just tell me."
He takes another shaky breath, the weight of his emotions almost unbearable. "Donā€™t tell me... you stopped loving me." he pleads, his voice raw and desperate. "I know thatā€™s not true. I know you would never be so harsh to me." His words are laced with disbelief, as if heā€™s clinging to any shred of hope that thereā€™s something heā€™s missing, something he can grasp, something that makes sense.
ā€œI can feel it, Y/n.ā€ he continues softly, eyes never leaving yours, searching your face as if it holds the answers. ā€œI know you love me. You canā€™t just... stop. Not after everything we went through. Not after what we had.ā€ He steps closer again, his heart aching at the thought of losing you. ā€œSo donā€™t tell me thatā€™s it. Donā€™t tell me you just decided it was over.ā€
"I never stopped loving you." you whisper, your voice barely audible as hot tears continue to roll down your cheeks. The weight of your words feels like an anchor in your chest, heavy and suffocating. You feel weak, defeated... like thereā€™s no hope left.
The sight of him standing there, shivering in pain, breaks you in ways you didnā€™t think were possible. His pain, the hurt youā€™ve caused, fills you with an overwhelming sense of guilt.
Your heart aches as you watch the way his eyes fill with confusion and desperation, his hands trembling as he reaches out to you, as if just a touch could make everything okay. But you know, deep down, that nothing can probably fix this.
"I'm sorry." you whisper, barely able to get the words out. "I'm so sorry, Jungkook. I never wanted to hurt you." The tears flow freely now, staining your cheeks as you try to find the strength to speak, to explain, but the words feel stuck, trapped inside you.
As you break down, Jungkook takes a seat beside you as he hesitantly wraps his arms around you, pulling you close. You bury your face in his chest, the tears coming in waves, uncontrollable, as the weight of everything you've been holding in comes rushing to the surface.
His hands gently stroke your back, soothing you in a way that makes everything feel just a little more bearable. Every sob that wracks your body seems to break his heart a little more, but he doesnā€™t pull away. Instead, he tightens his grip on you, as if reminding both of you that, for now, youā€™re not alone.
Jungkook feels his own tears begin to spill as he pulls you even closer, his heart breaking at the sight of your pain. His fingers tremble as they weave through your hair, trying to hold you as tightly as possible, as if he could absorb some of your sorrow.
The weight of the silence between you both is suffocating, but his mind races, desperately trying to understand why youā€™re in so much pain, why you had to leave him, why you feel so broken.
"Y/n..." His voice cracks, raw with emotion as he speaks your name. His chest tightens with the fear that maybe heā€™s never truly known the full story, that maybe everything he thought he understood was just an illusion.
His tears fall freely now, as he presses his forehead against yours, his breath shaky. "Please, just tell me. What happened?" His words are barely above a whisper, but they hold a desperate plea. "Why are you like this? What... what am I missing?"
His hands move to gently cup your face, his thumb brushing away the tears that continue to fall. Heā€™s not sure if heā€™s crying for the both of you or if heā€™s just so lost in your pain that it feels like itā€™s his own. "I canā€™t lose you again, Y/n. I need to know... why we are the way we are right now. Please, just tell me. I canā€™t fix it if I donā€™t understand."
His grip on you tightens, the urgency in his voice rising as he gazes into your eyes, searching for some kind of answer, anything that will explain the devastation heā€™s feeling. His love for you is still so strong, so unyielding, but the fear of losing you completely is almost too much to bear.
Just as you're about to speak, your phone starts ringing, its shrill tone cutting through the heavy silence. You hesitate for a moment, unsure whether to pick it up, especially given the fragile state you're in right now. But the phone keeps ringing, insistent, and you feel a knot tighten in your stomach.
With a sniffle, you pull away from Jungkook, trying to compose yourself as you reach for your phone. "Just a minute..." you whisper, wiping away the last of your tears as you glance at the caller ID.
It's the hospital. Your heart skips a beat at the sight, and before you can think twice, you answer, trying to steady your voice. "Hello?"
"Am I speaking to Ms. Choi?" the voice on the other end asks. Your breath catches in your throat, and without a second thought, you stand up, your heart rate increasing with every passing second. "Yes, this is she." you reply, trying to keep your composure, but the panic is starting to rise in your chest.
Jungkook watches you intently, noticing the change in your expression as you stand up. His concern deepens as he observes the tension in your body. Who could be calling you at this hour? You grip the phone tighter as the voice on the other end continues speaking, but then you gasp, your breath coming in quick, shallow bursts.
He watches in horror as you suddenly collapse, your knees buckling beneath you. It's like all the strength has left your body. His instincts kick in immediately, and he's by your side in an instant, crouching down and reaching out for you.
His hands land gently on your shoulders as he pulls you towards him, trying to steady you. The phone slips from your grasp, clattering to the ground, but you donā€™t seem to notice. Your eyes are wide, unblinking, and you stare ahead, lost in whatever news you've just received.
"Y/n... what happened? Are you okay?" Jungkook's voice is laced with worry, his hand moving to your cheek to check for any sign of awareness. You blink a few times, as if snapping back into reality, but itā€™s still hard to focus. Your lips tremble as you finally meet his eyes, and you whisper his name. "Jungkook..."
His heart races as he holds you tighter, desperate for you to continue. He nods, prompting you to keep talking. "Jungkook... Beomgyu... he... he woke up." you say.
"What...?" Jungkook asks, his voice laced with disbelief. His wide eyes search your face for confirmation, and when he sees the glimmer of truth in your tear-streaked expression, his features soften into a smile. "Y/n... that's... that's great news. That's... amazing news, baby." His voice wavers, a mix of relief and joy, and his smile grows wider.
You nod quickly, the reality of it hitting you all over again as fresh tears stream down your cheeks. "He's awake, Jungkook... he's really awake." you whisper, your voice trembling with a mixture of happiness and overwhelming emotion.
You pause, glancing around as you try to calm yourself down. "I need to go see him. I... I need to get to the... the hospital." you say hurriedly, the urgency in your tone impossible to miss.
Jungkook catches your arm gently but firmly, grounding you for a moment. "Hey, hey." he says softly, looking into your eyes with a steady calmness. "I'll take you there, yeah? My carā€™s parked right outside your house, so letā€™s go. Come on." he softly says as he helps you up.
//
You barge through the hospital doors, your steps quick and frantic, your heart racing as you navigate through the lobby. Jungkook follows close behind, his presence a comforting weight amidst the chaos swirling in your mind.
You reach the elevator and jab the button repeatedly, as though it might make the lift arrive faster. The ride up feels like an eternity, and yet, when the doors slide open, you're already bolting down the hallway towards Beomgyu's room.
Finally, you stand outside the door, your hand frozen on the handle. You take a shaky breath, trying to collect yourself, your chest rising and falling with the weight of four long years of waiting. Four years of imagining this moment, of rehearsing what youā€™d say, how youā€™d feel... but now, standing here, all those thoughts dissolve into a haze of indescribable emotion.
Jungkook steps beside you, his voice soft and steady as he whispers. "He's waiting for you, baby." His words calm you, giving you the courage you need to face whatā€™s on the other side of the door. You glance at him, his warm eyes filled with reassurance, and you nod, summoning the strength to push forward. With trembling hands, you carefully push the door open and step inside.
There he is. Beomgyu. Sitting up in bed, his back resting against the headboard, alive and awake. The sight is almost surreal, a moment that feels too precious to be real.
He looks at you with a lopsided grin, his expression as cheeky and familiar as ever. "Long time no see, Your Highness." he quips, his tone lighthearted and playful, as if the last four years hadn't just been wiped away by a miracle.
Your breath catches, a soft laugh escaping you as tears well up in your eyes again. "Beomgyu..." you whisper, your voice breaking. The weight of the years, the pain, the hope... all of it rushes to the surface as you step closer, overwhelmed by the reality of seeing him awake.
You rush to his side, tears streaming freely down your cheeks as you throw your arms around him in a tight embrace. The warmth of his body against yours is enough to break down every last wall you'd built over the years.
You remember all the times you'd playfully swatted him away, rolled your eyes, or made a face every time he tried to hug you because back then, you liked to act like showing affection to your sibling was embarrassing.
But right now, thereā€™s no hesitation, no second thought. Right now, youā€™ve never felt more alive.
ā€œI missed you.ā€ you sob, your voice muffled against his shoulder as you clutch him like youā€™re afraid he might slip away again. The tears come harder as the realization sinks in that this moment is real. Heā€™s real. The long, agonizing wait is finally over.
Beomgyu chuckles softly, his voice steady yet laced with emotion. "Wow, I must really be a sight for sore eyes if youā€™re this clingy." he teases, though his arms wrap tightly around you, holding you just as fiercely. His familiar, playful tone only makes you cry harder.
"You idiot." you choke out, your voice trembling as you pull back just enough to look at him. Your hands cup his face, your thumbs brushing away the tears that now spill from his eyes too. "Donā€™t you dare scare me like that ever again. Do you hear me? Never again."
His grin softens, and he nods, his own tears mirroring yours. "I promise." he whispers, his voice quieter, more solemn now. "Never again."
Jungkook lingers near the doorway, a soft smile playing on his lips as he watches the reunion unfold. The raw emotion in your embrace, the way you cling to Beomgyu like he might vanish if you let go... it stirs something deep within him.
He knows how long you've waited for this moment, how often you spoke of it with a mixture of hope and pain. Seeing you finally experience it makes his heart swell with happiness for you.
But then, Jungkook freezes as Beomgyu's gaze shifts towards him. His eyes widen slightly, realizing that this is the first time Beomgyu is seeing him.
ā€œWhoā€™s... that?ā€ Beomgyu asks, his voice curious but steady. His brows furrow slightly as he nods towards Jungkook. You turn to follow Beomgyuā€™s gaze, and when your eyes meet Jungkookā€™s, you canā€™t help but smile.
ā€œThatā€™s Jungkook.ā€ you say softly, glancing back at your brother before looking at Jungkook again. Thereā€™s something tender in the way you say his name, something that makes Jungkookā€™s smile widen as he nods politely at Beomgyu.
Before anything else can be said, the doctor appears and Jungkook steps aside letting him in. ā€œMs. Choi.ā€ the doctor greets with a warm smile. ā€œCongratulations. Itā€™s wonderful to see Beomgyu awake and responsive. However, weā€™ll need to run a few tests now, just to check his overall condition.ā€
You nod understandingly, brushing a stray tear from your cheek as you stand. ā€œOf course... thank you, doctor.ā€ you say, turning back to Beomgyu. You lean down to place a soft kiss on his forehead, your smile filled with a quiet reassurance. ā€œIā€™ll be right outside, okay?ā€
Beomgyu nods, his grin still cheeky. ā€œDonā€™t disappear. I need you to explain who that guy is and why he was looking at you with literal heart eyes.ā€ he teases, his playful tone making you chuckle as you shake your head.
You glance at Jungkook, whoā€™s scratching the back of his neck, looking a little flustered. ā€œBehave.ā€ you tell Beomgyu with a laugh before stepping outside with Jungkook, leaving your brother in the capable hands of the doctor.
As you settle into the metal chair right outside Beomgyu's room, beside Jungkook, the cold steel pressing against your back is a stark contrast to the warmth of his hand as it gently rests on your knee. His fingers squeeze lightly, offering some silent comfort.
You glance down at the way his hand fits so naturally on you and let out a small, tired smile. Placing your hand over his, your thumb begins to trace slow circles over his knuckles, grounding yourself in the quiet rhythm of the motion.
Your voice breaks the silence, soft but weighted. "Junghyun... he came to see me."
Jungkookā€™s brows knit together in confusion. ā€œJunghyun? My brother?ā€ he repeats, his tone disbelieving as he tries to process your words. You nod, your gaze shifting to the sterile white tiles of the hospital floor.
ā€œFour months ago... he came to the kindergarten.ā€ you admit, your voice faltering slightly. You exhale deeply, trying to steady yourself before diving into the painful memory.
The words spill out in fragments, raw and hesitant, as you recount the confrontation with Junghyun. You describe the way he appeared out of nowhere, his presence overbearing, his threats sharp and deliberate. You tell Jungkook how he used your brother's condition against you, twisting it into a weapon, leaving you cornered and helpless.
By the time you finish, the tension in Jungkookā€™s body is palpable. His jaw is clenched tight, and his fists curl against his knees. His breath is sharp as he mutters through gritted teeth, ā€œThat motherfuckerā€¦ā€
His reaction makes your chest tighten, a mixture of relief and guilt washing over you. Heā€™s angry... angrier than youā€™ve ever seen him but you know itā€™s not directed at you. Itā€™s the thought of his brotherā€™s cruel manipulation, the pain you endured in silence, that has his blood boiling.
"I'll be right back." Jungkook says firmly, already standing up and walking away with purpose. Panic rises in your chest as you quickly catch up to him, already guessing where heā€™s headed. "Jungkook, no... wait, stop." you plead, reaching out to grab his arm.
He stops abruptly, turning to face you and holding your shoulders gently but firmly. His dark eyes lock onto yours, filled with resolve. "Y/n, just trust me." he says, his voice steady yet reassuring. "He wonā€™t be able to do anything. Iā€™ll make sure... Iā€™ll make sure you and Beomgyu are safe. I promise."
You open your mouth to protest, but he shakes his head, cutting you off before the words can escape. "I need to put him in his place." he breathes out, his jaw tightening. "He needs to know he canā€™t talk to you like that. He needs to understand what you mean to me." His voice softens slightly, the tenderness in his gaze making your heart ache.
"Just stay here with Beomgyu." he continues, his tone resolute. "Iā€™ll be back soon. I promise."
Before you can stop him, he steps closer, pressing a tender kiss on your forehead, his touch lingering like a silent vow. Then, without another word, he turns on his heels and strides down the hallway, his determination unwavering. You stand frozen, watching him disappear, the sound of his footsteps echoing in the quiet of the hospital.
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Jungkook barges into his brother's home office, the door slamming against the wall with a loud bang. Junghyun glances up from his computer, a bemused expression on his face. "Oh, Jungkook? Didnā€™t expect you to visit on a Sunday. What brings youā€”"
His sentence is cut off abruptly as Jungkook strides over, grabbing his collar and yanking him to his feet. Before Junghyun can even process whatā€™s happening, a powerful punch lands squarely on his cheek. He stumbles back, clutching his face in shock, but Jungkook doesnā€™t let him regain his footing.
With a growl of anger, Jungkook throws another punch, the impact snapping Junghyunā€™s head to the side. The metallic tang of blood fills the air as a crimson streak trickles from Junghyun's split lip.
"Jungkook!" Junghyun finally manages to shout, his voice laced with both pain and disbelief. "What the fuck are you doing?"
Jungkook doesnā€™t respond immediately, his chest heaving as he towers over his brother. His fists clench and unclench, the anger rolling off him in waves. "Thatā€™s for threatening Y/n." he snarls, his voice dangerously low. "You think you can mess with her? Intimidate her like that? Not while Iā€™m here."
Junghyun glares at him, wiping the blood from his lip, his shock slowly giving way to a cold smirk. "So, this is about her?" he mutters, his tone mocking despite his obvious discomfort. "Youā€™re letting your emotions cloud your judgment, Jungkook. How pathetic."
But Jungkook doesnā€™t flinch. Instead, he grabs Junghyun by the collar again, pulling him close. "Listen to me." he says through gritted teeth. "Stay away from her. If you ever even think about going near her or Beomgyu again, I swear, youā€™ll regret it."
Jungkook lets go of Junghyun with a forceful shove, sending him sprawling back into his chair. "All this for a girl like her? Really Jungkook?" Junghyun scoffs, his tongue poking the inside of cheek. "You have no idea what she means to me." Jungkook says lowly, glaring at his brother.
Jungkookā€™s jaw tightens, his fists still clenched at his sides. His voice drops to a low, dangerous tone. "You have no idea what she means to me." he says, his glare unwavering. "And you never will."
Junghyun chuckles bitterly, his face twisted in disdain, but before he can retort, Jungkook steps closer, his presence commanding. "Do you think Dadā€™s going to be proud when he hears what youā€™ve been up to?" Jungkook asks, his words sharp and deliberate.
Junghyunā€™s smirk falters ever so slightly. "You think heā€™ll be okay with you going around threatening people? Manipulating them? Using fear to get your way?" Jungkook continues, his voice rising slightly. "Youā€™re the pathetic one, hyung."
He pauses, letting his words sink in, then laughs... a dry, humorless sound. "And you know whatā€™s really pathetic? That you thought I wouldnā€™t find out. That you thought Iā€™d just let it slide."
Junghyunā€™s jaw tightens, his eyes narrowing, but he stays silent, his confidence clearly shaken. Jungkook steps back, his glare never leaving his brother. "This is your last warning. Stay away from her. Stay away from Beomgyu. Because if you donā€™t..." He leans in slightly, his voice dropping to a menacing whisper. "You wonā€™t just have Dad to deal with. Youā€™ll have me."
Without waiting for a response, Jungkook straightens up and strides out of the office, slamming the door behind him, leaving Junghyun to stew in his own discomfort and rising dread.
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As you help Beomgyu inside your house, he pauses for a moment, letting his eyes wander around the familiar space. His gaze lands on the corner of the room, behind the couch, and a smirk tugs at his lips. "You still haven't gotten rid of that weird vase?" he teases, pointing at the decorative piece.
You roll your eyes, shutting the door behind you. "That's never gonna happen." you reply with a shrug, playfully glaring at him.
He shakes his head in mock disapproval before taking a seat on the couch. The cold fabric causes him to shiver slightly, but he leans back, closing his eyes. "Well... it's good to be back." he murmurs, exhaling deeply.
You stand there for a moment, watching him. Your heart feels so full it could burst. It almost seems unreal... having him here, in your home, after all this time. "Let me cook you some jjajangmyeon." you suggest, breaking the silence.
His eyes snap open, a grin spreading across his face. "Oh my god, how did you know I was craving exactly that?" he asks, his tone amused. "It's a sibling thing." you reply with a wink, heading into the kitchen.
As you start preparing the ingredients, your thoughts inevitably drift to Jungkook, especially since you haven't heard from him ever since he left you at the hospital. You canā€™t help but wonder how heā€™s handling the situation with Junghyun. The thought of it makes your stomach churn slightly, but you push the anxiety aside.
"So, whereā€™s your little boyfriend?" Beomgyu's voice interrupts your thoughts, his teasing tone carrying from the living room. A shy smile tugs at your lips, but you donā€™t respond immediately. "Come on..." he continues, his footsteps drawing closer until heā€™s leaning casually against the kitchen counter.
"I was in a damn coma for four years, and my bitchless sister finally manages to pull someone, and I donā€™t even get a proper introduction?"
You snort at his choice of words. "Oh, come on, Gyu." you reply, turning to face him with a mock exasperated look. "Iā€™ll introduce you when the timeā€™s... right." He sighs, clearly unimpressed with your answer. "The timeā€™s right when I say it is." he quips, but his grin betrays the affection behind the teasing.
Beomgyu arches a brow at the sudden sound of the doorbell, his smirk widening with curiosity. "Is that who I think it is?" he quips, leaning back against the counter with an air of playful arrogance.
You glance at him, wide-eyed and suddenly flustered. You smile at him briefly before you quickly make your way to the door, your heart thudding in anticipation. The moment you open it, time seems to still. There stands Jungkook, bathed in the soft glow of the porch light, his presence radiating comfort and confidence. His smile is subtle yet powerful, a silent reassurance that everything is under control.
You step outside, quietly closing the door behind you, shielding the moment from your brother's prying gaze. You fidget with your fingers as words evade you. "So...?" you finally manage, your voice trailing off.
Jungkook doesnā€™t answer immediately. Instead, he steps forward, closing the space between you. His arms encircle you in a gentle, protective embrace, his warmth instantly melting away your apprehensions. "I punched him." he says at last, his voice tinged with triumph.
Your eyes widen in surprise, and you pull back just enough to search his face. "What?" you ask, your voice rising an octave in disbelief.
"I punched him." he repeats, a satisfied grin tugging at his lips. "Right in the face. You shouldā€™ve seen him... completely caught off guard. Like...there's no way he actually had the nerve to mess with my girl."
A mix of shock and amusement washes over you as you lightly smack his chest. "Jungkook! Thatā€™s not something to be proud of." you admonish, though the corners of your mouth twitch with an unwilling smile. "Violence isnā€™t the answer."
His smirk deepens as he tilts his head, his dark eyes twinkling with mischief. "Oh, but in his case, it is."
You shake your head, exhaling a laugh despite yourself. "What am I gonna do with you?" you murmur, your tone caught between exasperation and fondness.
Jungkookā€™s expression softens, the teasing glimmer in his eyes replaced by an intensity that makes your breath hitch. "Y/N..." he begins, his voice low and steady. "You donā€™t have to worry anymore. Iā€™ll take care of everything... you, Beomgyu. Youā€™ll both be safe. I promise."
His words hit you hard, the depth of his sincerity leaving you momentarily speechless. He steps even closer, his hands gently cupping your face as his thumbs brush against your cheeks. "I promise you, no one will ever hurt you again. Not while Iā€™m here." he vows, his tone resolute, his gaze locking onto yours.
You nod, your chest swelling with a sense of safety you hadnā€™t realized you were yearning for. "Just promise me..." he continues, his voice softening. "if anything ever happens again, youā€™ll tell me. Right away. No hiding, no secrets."
A lump forms in your throat as you nod again, unable to find the words to express the gratitude and trust coursing through you. Jungkook smiles faintly, the tension easing from his features, and he pulls you into another embrace. His arms wrap around you like a fortress, his chin resting lightly atop your head.
"I missed you." you whisper, your voice muffled against his chest.
"I missed you too." he murmurs, his voice filled with emotion as he tightens his hold on you. "More than you know."
After a few long moments, you pull back, your eyes meeting his as the world seems to shrink down to just the two of you. His gaze flickers to your lips, and before you can even register it, he leans in, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to your lips.
The kiss is tender yet fervent, each movement brimming with unspoken emotions. You feel his love, his promise, and his unwavering devotion in the way his lips meld with yours, leaving no room for doubt that this is where you belong. The porch, the cool evening air, the distant sounds of the world... all of it fades into oblivion as you lose yourself in him.
It's as if a colossal weight has finally been lifted from your shoulders, allowing you to breathe freely for the first time in what feels like forever. In this fleeting, surreal moment, the world fades away, leaving only the steady rhythm of your heart and the warmth surrounding you.
Everything about this feels inexplicably right , the way he kisses you, the way his arms embrace you, the way his presence steadies your storm. You feel complete, as though the jagged pieces of your soul have found their perfect fit. You feel whole again.
"Umm, sooo sorry to interrupt the lovebirds." Beomgyuā€™s voice drawls out, cutting through the tender moment. You and Jungkook both pull apart and turn your heads sharply, only to see him mischievously peeking out of the window right beside the front door. ā€œBut, Y/n, your brother, who just got out of a coma, is really, really hungry and would love for you to finish cooking the jjajangmyeon you promised him.ā€
You roll your eyes, a flush creeping up your cheeks as Jungkook stifles a laugh. "And, of course..." Beomgyu continues, his grin widening. ā€œHeā€™d absolutely love to finally meet your boyfriend.ā€ He emphasizes the last word, wagging his eyebrows dramatically at Jungkook, who chuckles deeply at your brother's antics.
You groan, covering your face in Jungkookā€™s chest as he wraps an arm protectively around you, his shoulders shaking with laughter. ā€œGyu, youā€™re unbelievable.ā€ you mumble, your voice muffled.
Beomgyu shrugs nonchalantly. ā€œHey, priorities, okay? Food first, making out later.ā€ he teases, shooting a mock salute before disappearing back into the house after shutting the window down.
Jungkook looks down at you, his smile soft and amused. ā€œI like him.ā€ he says with a chuckle. You pull back slightly, playfully glaring at him. ā€œDonā€™t encourage him.ā€ you warn, though the smile tugging at your lips betrays your amusement.
ā€œCome on.ā€ Jungkook says, planting a quick kiss on your forehead. ā€œLetā€™s goā€¦ we can't have your brother starving.ā€ he says.
You laugh, grabbing his hand as the two of you step back inside. The warmth of your house envelops you, and for the first time in forever, you feel okay.
Beomgyuā€™s playful voice fills the air as he grins from the couch, the sibling bond you thought youā€™d lost now brighter than ever. Jungkook squeezes your hand, his steady presence a reminder that the hardest days are now way behind you.
In the kitchen, surrounded by laughter and the aroma of cooking, you glance at Jungkook. His soft smile says everything words canā€™t, filling your heart with a quiet peace.
For the first time in months, youā€™re not just surviving... youā€™re actually living. With Beomgyu back where he belongs and Jungkook by your side, your heart feels complete, wrapped in the comforting truth that this... this is what home is meant to feel like.
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littlegermanboy Ā· 4 months ago
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hi everyone. i'm writing to you today with desperate urgency. as you all know, i've been advocating for my friend amal (@amalashuor) for around 2 months now. a few weeks ago, she was thankfully able to reach her first goal of raising ā‚¬30k. however, due to the incredibly high cost of living as amal details in the screenshot below, she unfortunately had to increase her fundraising goal to ā‚¬50k.
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[Image ID: Seven Tumblr messages from Amal. Together, they read: "Here I am in war mode, renting the house where my family lives for $2,500. I created a fundraiser to escape from Gaza to a safe country. But I found myself spending the money people donated to me on rent, food, and my daughter šŸ˜•šŸ˜• House rent is $2,000. Food and beverages are $2,000. My daughter's good, such as milk, Cerelac, and Pampers, costs $500. This means I need $5,000 a month to meet basic life needs šŸ˜­ I don't work now. How can I provide this amount for my family? šŸ’” I'm so sick and tired šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’” I hope this war ends šŸ™" End ID.]
in the almost two weeks since amal met her first goal, only THREE THOUSAND EUROS HAS BEEN RAISED. i don't know what to do. donations have been decreasing across the board for survival and evacuation funds since the increase in accusations of gazans trying to survive being scammers. amal is so close to my heart, i want to be able to give her all the money she needs to escape gaza and provide for her beautiful family. i just want other people to want the same for her.
as of today, september 3rd, ā‚¬33,087 / ā‚¬50,000 has been raised. please god i'm literally begging you to at least reblog this post or share amal's gofundme wherever you can. most of all, i'm begging you to please donate whatever you can to amal so she can not only survive in gaza but so she can escape to safety with her family. care for the ashour family like they were your family. put yourself in their shoes.
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@sliceofdyke @bimalta @transmutationisms @bilal-salah0 @aces-and-angels @malcriada
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@27-moons @tamarrud @fleshdyk3 @thatsonehellofabird
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ahmedsal-1qa Ā· 1 month ago
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ā›” please help my family don't skip šŸ›‘
Hello, My name is Ahmad Mohammed Hassan Salah, a 33-year-old man from Gaza, Palestine. Under the sky of Gaza, amidst the war and shelling, begins my story. I lived my life in the northern part of Gaza with my wife and three children, dreaming of a secure future for my small family. Nada, my seven-year-old eldest daughter, loves to draw, though her colors have disappeared amid the rubble šŸŽØšŸ’”. Mohamed, my five-year-old son, still dreams of playing in a garden untouched by bombs šŸ›šŸ’”. As for Huda, my two-year-old, she has started uttering her first words amid the sounds of explosions šŸ¼šŸ’”.
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The tragedy began one night of the war when I was forced to leave my home under continuous bombardment šŸ’£šŸ˜”. I carried my children and my anxious wife, running through the debris and darkness in search of a safe haven šŸŒŖļø. Our journey was fraught with dangers, as we left everything behind: our home, memories, and even our money and food šŸšļøšŸ’”. After a long journey, we found ourselves in southern Gaza, where we set up a small tent as a temporary refuge ā›ŗšŸ˜ž.
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The tent, small as it was, became our new world. Without mattresses to shield us from the cold nights or blankets to protect us from the rain šŸŒ§ļøā„ļø, life was harsh. The children slept on the ground, and I struggled to provide any food to feed my family šŸžšŸ’”. But the war showed us no mercy. After only three months, we were forced to move once again, this time to central Gaza. The Israeli army described it as a "safe zone," but the shelling followed us like an unrelenting shadow šŸ’”šŸ’£.
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More than a year has passed, and my family and I continue to live under bombardment and destruction šŸŒ‹šŸ’”. Each day brings with it a new story of suffering. Food is scarce šŸ½ļø, water is contaminated šŸš±, and fear never leaves my children's hearts šŸ˜”šŸ’”. Nada has started asking, "When will this war end?" šŸ˜¢. Mohamed tries to comfort his mother, who weeps in silence šŸ˜­šŸ’”. As for Huda, she knows no world other than one filled with terrifying sounds šŸ„ŗ.
I also suffer from a chronic illness, and I have a medical report confirming my condition šŸ„šŸ’”. However, the pain of my illness is less than the anguish I see in my children's eyes šŸ’”šŸ˜”. I try to be strong, but I sometimes break down when I cannot provide food for them šŸ„ŗ. My wife stands by me, trying to bring hope, but even hope has become a rare commodity šŸ’”.
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Amidst the devastation, I want to send a message to the world: "We are human. Our children deserve a better life. We just want safety. All I want is to sleep one night without fearing that my children will wake up to the sound of explosions." šŸ™šŸ’”
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Due to this ongoing suffering, I appeal to the world through Tumblr to raise donations for my family and for other families experiencing similar circumstances šŸŒšŸ’”. If you are able to provide any assistance, no matter how small, it would mean so much to us šŸ™šŸ«‚. You can help by donating food, clothing, or even essential medications that we desperately need šŸ’ŠšŸ›’. I kindly ask you to share our story on Tumblr, because spreading it may reach kind hearts all over the worldā€”hearts that can offer help and save the lives of my children and the children of Gaza from this hell ā¤ļøšŸ•Šļø.
My story is not just an individual one; it represents thousands of families in Gaza living in conditions that are unimaginable šŸ’”. The question remains: How long will this suffering continue? And will the day come when Nada can draw a sun without it being covered by the smoke of war? šŸŒžāœļøšŸ’”
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āœ…ļøVetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #280 )āœ…ļø
āœ…ļøVetted by @gazavetters
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hyunebunx Ā· 4 months ago
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ā‹†.Ėš į”£š­© ā– ā€™Ā show donā€™t tell with skz !
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āŗ š–¹­ .Ā genre: fluff
āŗ š–¹­ .Ā a/n: how the boys say i love you without saying i love you. hope you like it <3
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šœ—ą­§Ā chanĀ šœ—ą­§ - ā€œIā€™m here for you.ā€
And he always means it. No matter how busy or stressed he is, if you call Chan comes running. Being your shoulder to cry on is his full-time job, to be honest.
This doesnā€™t only apply to when youā€™re going through something though. Chan is there for you when things are hard, of course, but heā€™s also always present when you accomplish something, doesnā€™t matter how small it is.
The most supportive boyfriend who never forgets to celebrate you. Itā€™s such a normality in your relationship that you only realize how thoughtful and amazing he is when you look back, and his face comes to mind for every major event that took place in your life in the past year.
Is the epitome of ā€˜ride or dieā€™ and you canā€™t change my mind.
šœ—ą­§Ā minhoĀ šœ—ą­§ - by always looking out for you.
No matter what you are doing, Minhoā€™s eyes will always gravitate towards you. To ensure you are safe, that you arenā€™t struggling with anything or feeling uncomfortable. Or so, he says, but in reality, he really enjoys just observing you in your everyday life, every action of yours adorable in his eyes.
If you are struggling, heā€™s by your side in a heartbeat. Most of the time, you wonā€™t even realize heā€™s there until whatever was giving you problems is taken care of.
You canā€™t open something? Minhoā€™s got it. Youā€™re struggling with work? Heā€™s quietly thinking of a solution and writing it down. Youā€™re stressed? Heā€™s already prepared your favorite snack and is on his way over.
Minho loves quietly yet his actions donā€™t let you forget about that love even for a second.
šœ—ą­§Ā changbinĀ šœ—ą­§ -Ā by peppering kisses all over your face every opportunity he gets.
To him, you are absolutely adorable and sometimes, he gets this urge to just smother you with all of his love all at once. Whatā€™s ā€˜playing it coyā€™? Changbinā€™s never heard of her.
Heā€™s usually one who doesn't shy away from expressing his love verbally, however, there are times when words just arenā€™t enough.
So, heā€™ll randomly lean towards you and start small, with a kiss or two on your cheeks before giving in and not stopping until heā€™s kissed every inch of your face.
He doesnā€™t play when it comes to you so, heā€™ll only stop when he shows you exactly how strong the feelings he carries in his heart are.
šœ—ą­§Ā hyunjinĀ šœ—ą­§ -Ā by keeping a picture of you in his wallet.
I mean, of course, this is Hyunjin we are talking about. And the picture in question is one he took himself on one of your many dates.
Switches it out once every couple of months and sometimes, even keeps two at a time. He canā€™t help it ā€“ you look so beautiful and radiant, that being greeted by your smiling face every time he opens his wallet lifts his spirits instantly.
When he misses you, heā€™ll absentmindedly open his wallet for no reason just to see your face, even though heā€™s aware he can call and see your beaming smile whenever he pleases.
Swiftly sneaks a picture of himself in your own wallet so you can match.
šœ—ą­§Ā jisungĀ šœ—ą­§ -Ā by dedicating every song he writes to you.
Being loved by you is the best thing thatā€™s ever happened to him and nobody can convince Jisung otherwise.
Thatā€™s why, every time he sits down to work, his head is full of thoughts of you that just never go away. His heart is so full of love, he canā€™t help but at least attempt to put all of that into words.
Has written dozens of songs about you and the magical way you make him feel and they all sound like something that would play at the gates of heaven, just dreamy. The purest form of love.
Grabs his guitar and serenades you only with the songs he deems worthy of your attention.
šœ—ą­§Ā felixĀ šœ—ą­§ - Ā ā€œyou look tense, let me give you a massage.ā€
Thatā€™s what he says but, in the end, he pampers you until you have to physically stop him. A hand massage, a face one, Felix becomes your personal masseur.
When you do stop him, he just moves on to hugging and cuddling you, leaving the occasional kiss here and there.
He canā€™t be too far apart from you, it physically hurts him. Has to touch and feel you near at all times, no matter what youā€™re doing. Links your pinkies together and just follows you around like a puppy.
Will do your skincare and even wash your hair for you, anything. Just ask.
šœ—ą­§Ā seungminĀ šœ—ą­§ -Ā ā€œthis reminded me of you.ā€
No matter what heā€™s doing, if he spots something in a store that makes his thoughts rush to you, heā€™s stopping that activity and going in immediately.
Doesnā€™t care about the money ā€“ the gifts can range from jewellery to random, sometimes ugly souvenirs he finds abroad at a gift shop. His mind works in mysterious ways, you can never know what silly thing would suddenly remind Seungmin of you next.
ā€œYou.ā€ And itā€™s either the ugliest keychain youā€™ve ever seen or the most beautiful flowers, thereā€™s no in-between.
Gets you a stuffed puppy so you can also be reminded of him at all times, just like heā€™s constantly thinking of you.
šœ—ą­§Ā jeonginĀ šœ—ą­§ - by quietly wiping your tears and holding you when upset.
Heā€™s the type that wonā€™t say anything and just bring you into the warmest, most comforting hug ever. His bear hugs will have you melting in his arms, making you feel super safe.
So gentle and soft-spoken, literally handles you like youā€™re made of glass when he sees something has truly upset you.
Will wipe your tears and listen to whatever you have to say, giving you his full attention. Also gets you water and helps you remove your makeup, or fix your hair when you feel better.
Wonā€™t let go until heā€™s convinced you actually feel better and even then, an eye is still on you while he intertwines your fingers and goes on about his business.
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